Naughty watch

Finally... I have found my long lost watch!!

It is a present from my mom before I came to UK.
I started finding it before I went back during the summer and almost threw over the drawers but still could not see it! Then I thought I must have lost it somewhere when I was travelling abroad.

Guess where it has been hiding for 6 months?

...in my bath robe! 
* surprise of the day* XD

It's December

If you have been busying around since the start of the term, stop and look:

All in a silence the winter has come!

Today the temperature plummeted to as low as two,

We no longer be able stand strong with thin layers of clothes,

Now it's the time to take out 

our wool knitted tops, coats, gloves and boots,

To keep ourselves warm and snuggy and feeling good!

In the evening I went to the Christmas Market again

which is going to close after this weekend

Bought two packets of Chou Chous, with hazelnuts and almond, 

and had German sausages as my dinner

Thanks to my good friend,

To give me a pair of white gloves, such a heartwarming present.

Then we went up the uni to watch Sleeping Beauty Pantomine

A comedy indeed, with lots of laughters and grins.

I looked up and saw the bright round moon in the vast dark sky

It seems just so so close to the earth.

The white moonlight shines on the dark lane, 

like a lamp-post showing the way back home.

Here goes my second Friday in December, 

which marks of the beginning of winter.

Christmas market

The Christmas market officially began yesterday!
This year the weather is much warmer, as I remembered I wore quite thick layers of clothes when I was going to the market last year. "The weather was due to plummet" after some heavy fog days in UK, reported by Metro.

So here's a few bits and pieces of the Christmas market:

We actually went to see our friend singing choir at one of the street for the opening of Bath Christmas market. The facial expression of the conductor was amazing and she was just so professional. The members of the choir look like a bunch of children obediently looking at the conductor and singing with the best of their male voices.

Lotsa booths have been set up selling a variety of antique and local things that we don't normally find in other places

Bought the favourite must-eat-nuts from the market - Chou chou!

We're entering the winter of the year now~

This is such a meaningful picture - the Paradigm!
We are always told and taught by our teachers, parents and society what's should be done and what's not.
What mistakes that we should avoid and learn from the past. But sometimes the reason behind was just forgotten and I just tend to follow it blindly, follow what other people are doing because what most people do will likely be the right thing to do. I'm too lazy to think why.

So, always questions ourselves, why are we doing each thing in our life? Why are we doing it in this way and not that? Do we truly understand why are we following certain tradition?

This reminds me of the Rancho in Three Idiots, who can always come out of the paradigm of the society.

Kalama sutta says, do not believe anything that is written on the paper or told by even our teachers. Ehipassiko, we have to find it out by ourselves. Throw away the laziness of reasoning and searching your own way and don't do it because it is easy or it's something our closest friends do.

The life is ours, we have the total authority on deciding what colours should be painted on it.
" Human is the supreme beings of creating cause and conditions."

A key chain given by my friend, Cindy. It used to be a key chain on my pencil box for about two years.
The first reaction when I saw it like that was, " Ohh! It's broken!" and a tiny rush of sadness overwhelmed me for a second.
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And then I realised, the key chain was and had always been made of a few threads of strings. It is just coming back to its original form. Then why should I be sad about it?

Recently my friend has given me this little cute angel decoration. I can't tell how subtle my affinity is for it. The angel is holding her heart, as if reminding us to have our hearts with us whenever we are. And when it rings, it gives the crispy glass sound.

Every little thing in life teaches us some lessons.

Now the things look clearer.
Watch your five senses. Watch your attachment. Watch your anger.
Don't be fooled by it.
Arrr, the leaves are green, sky is grey.
The clouds come and go.

Here's what I  heard from a friend.
When nobody's gonna make a step further,
to make connections or to repair the broken parts,
That's how a friendship dies.
It's easy to follow the happiness that comes,
but it's hard to face sorrow with total calmness,
and not reacting to it with more ego and grief.
Because that would never bring peace.
And a simple solution is to face it, let go of the emotions and move on.
It is the easiest way theoretically yet the hardest way practically.
The conditions will still change again today and tomorrow.
When will we be stopped fooling by an ignorance mind?

Dear blog,

you already know what I want to say.

: ']

: )

Mooncake festival

Just have a real great time celebrating the Mooncake festival a day earlier!
When I started to miss lanterns and candles, which seems so far away from a lady of twenties, Ahh, then my nieces and nephews came, bringing along their candles and lanterns!
They are shy but naughty, but they are just so cute and innocent. I can't help but keep playing with them. Oh I feel so young now!
The adults are talking, the teenagers are watching tv, the children are playing with their mom laughing and singing.

Colourful candles in the dark,
Angry-bird featured lanterns hung on the sticks,
The cuties looked at the candles with innocent faces，
The youngsters competed to blow out the lights.
We sang and sang knowing only two of the sentences,
We ate the mooncake and shared out the sweets.
The moon maybe high up in the sky, cannot be seen,
But I can taste the sweetness of the smile on everyone's face.



Happy mid-autumn festival!

Kungfu panda 2

Have just watched KungFu Panda 2 this afternoon. It is so funny yet touching!

On top of that, I like how some parts of the story relate to the dharma.
The cute cuddly panda had successfully fought the evil peacock by going through the path of facing his unhappy past and letting go of it. He ultimately found his inner peace that rests all the inner struggles and thus gained the power to defeat his enemy.




Shifu: "Po, the day you was chosen as the dragon warrior was the worst day of my life. By far, nothing else came close. It was the worst, most painful, mind destroying, horrible moment...I have ever experienced..."
Panda: "Okay.."
Shifu: "But once I realised the problem was not you, but within me, I found inner peace, and was able to harness the flow of universe." 

Postcrossing

It will never come again. But that's what makes life so sweet.
因我们只能活一次，人生才如此甜美。
-- Emily Dickinson (1830 - 1886)

Each time, it is not entirely different but not exactly the same. It is changing, in a very slow pace, continuously. And this applies to ourselves, our thoughts, and anything around us.

Hence, it is not easy to get to what it is now.
When it is here, we can choose to refuse, but we can also choose to accept it for what it is now.
Isn't it what we are hoping, deep in our heart, for someone that can love and accept us for who we are? =)

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There is always good news and interesting discovery from Sin Chew Jit Poh.
Check this out：http://www.postcrossing.com/

For those postcard and stamp lovers, now it is your golden chance to send your postcard to one of the postcrossing members in other countries. In exchange for that, someone will also send you a postcard but you'll never know who is that person and where is he/she from! So, be prepared for surprises at your doorstep one day you wake up! And then we can officially say " Life is a box of chocolates. You'll never know which one you will get."

I have just registered as a member and my first recipient is a lady from Finland. It is such a good thing to post a smile to someone around the globe so why not do it? You'll receive one from the others too, that's how karma works.

Hope you have a wonderful journey of giving love and sharing knowledge and culture. =)

A sad case

There is a sad case that I should have told last week.

The day after I and grandma had happily planted the two cactus, I went to grandma's house and realise, oh, the old cactus was gone!

Stunned at the empty pot and not sure what had happened, I quickly went and asked my grandma. She said, " Nei, Lucky and Happy (the two dogs in the house) had eaten it.."

I was really in a disbelief. How would they bite or engulf such a prickly old cactus? @.@

I was about to throw my temper at the dogs but a thought flashed through my mind. It was a story about a monk who has his most favourite pot of flowers broken by his disciple. His disciple was so frightened that he would be scolded when he told his master about this. Surprisingly, the master laughed instead and said, "I planted this flower to appreciate and entertain myself, not to make myself angry!" （我这盆栽是拿来欣赏的，而不是拿来气自己的。”)

Quite true! I planted the cactus as a hobby and I shouldn't have ended it with anger or frustration. After this I have decided not to be angry and accept for what it is. Anyway, the young and lively cactus is still there in the pot!

There are quite some lessons to think about why I should get angry. After years I have come to the thought  that the cactus belongs to me, it is mine. The fact is it never belongs to anybody; It is just a plant and I can't stop it from changing or being changed ( damaged, death) And so often the shatter of the things we like put us into frustration and sadness; With a calm heart we can actually observe how deep is our obsession towards the things we like and how thing is constantly changing when the conditions change. When we don't understand this, we often suffer - not from the things but from our wrong perceptions and thoughts.

我家的小仙人掌宝宝终于要“出嫁”了！

两年前，由于要出国念书，

把她转交给婆婆看护。

在婆婆的悉心照料下，

小仙人掌终于能独当一面,

离开母亲，展开它的扎根之旅！

昨日下午，看见小仙人掌歪斜了一边，还与母体形成直角。知道它快掉了，于是便和婆婆商量把小仙人掌拔掉。过程真的又ganjiong又精彩，我们在它们的连接处小心翼翼地割切与扭转，深怕伤了任何一方，感觉像极了在帮仙人掌“接生”一样！

 

手术成功！小仙人掌比母体还大耶。
这个仙人掌的品种很独特，它的刺不像一般的那么坚硬刺人，
而上方的刺特别长，长成一撮像是仙人掌的头发一样。
所以我特别爱轻轻地抚摸它。

看着依然犹在的仙人掌，心中竟有莫名的感动。

婆婆在为小仙人掌作另一个家。

时时保持心境的喜乐

才能感受这世界的美好

加油！

其实从夏天之旅回来后，早已不时阅读一个在面子书局广为流传的故事。故事是是这样的，许多家庭主妇都发现自己家里的厨房太肮脏了，太多的老鼠与大蛇出没，吞袭和破坏妈妈们辛苦买回来的食物，每个厨房的老鼠甚至鼠鼠相护，使到整个地区都民不聊生。于是，她们研究和推出了一瓶强力杀虫剂，并决定告诉邻居们，团结起来对付这些蛇鼠一窝，破坏食物的大坏蛋！可是这些蛇虫鼠蚁已在厨房为非作歹了一段日子，那些可恶的蛇头鼠王甚至以为自己在这个厨房当了王，忘了厨房本该是属于家庭主妇们的！村民原本想要以慈悲的方式请这些老鼠离开，怎么知道这些老鼠非但不听，还派出了蚂蚁兵还攻打人类！

读着这本奈人寻味的故事，故事还有许多版本，还好有作者写实地叙说出精彩的蚂蚁兵与家庭主妇之战。其实很久很久以前，蚂蚁兵本该是保护人类的动物，它们那流氓粗鲁的行为伤害的不只是咬伤了妈妈们的身，还打碎了她们的心。可是我想，好好的一个蚂蚁兵又怎么会这样呢？

身为蚂蚁兵，他们可能根本不知道，他们和主妇们并非敌人。他们只是接获蚁将军的指令，而蚁将军却和老鼠一族狼狈为奸。他们只知道，阿头叫他们要负责镇压整个厨房，于是，他们服从，想尽办法不让主妇们聚在一块。蚂蚁兵也有自己的压力。可是是将军叫他们这么做的，说是为了厨房的安全。而将军说得话总是没错。他们想，只要把场面镇压好了，他们这么做是对的。而老鼠啊，大蛇啊，在对岸说笑，对着天空乱说话。

想到这里，我心中的悲悯超越了该有的愤怒。反之，我是否该为蚂蚁兵的无知和盲从感到悲哀呢？我相信，很多时候它们连自己在这故事中该扮演的角色也不懂。想想，是否该原谅它们的无知与野蛮呢？毕竟它们不曾接触过其他有思想的王国的士兵，只能用自己的方式去完成它们的任务。

在这里，还是得为故事中勇敢无惧的家庭主们鼓掌。送上这首歌给努力奋斗的她们！


为了厨房，为了孩子的未来，主妇们不要放弃！

Harry potter 的故事都告诉我们，正义的哈里波特一定会获胜，而邪恶的Voldemort一定会得到他应有的果报！JK Rowling说得噢，她不会骗小孩子的。
Sirius black 已经去世了，Harry 会为他的义父讨回公道的。

在家庭主妇把老鼠们赶出她们的厨房后，它们就能体会到什么叫“过街老鼠，人人喊打”了。

可是，提醒大家在爱护家园，提防老鼠的同时，也别让情绪过头了。留得青山在，哪怕没柴烧。师父说过，要真正护家，就要客观地观察，自己该扮演的角色。不是为逞英雄，不是为谁不忿，不是一时之气。而是首要在于如何能根本地解决问题。

对，还有许多问题还待解决。

譬如蚂蚁兵的无知。它们也是厨房的一份子啊。
譬如许多不问世事的老人家，家庭主妇，要如何才能提起他们对养鼠为患的醒觉，如何增进他们不惧恶势的信心？要如何让他们揭穿糖果的外衣包含的是毒药，用他们的力量创造哈里坡特的传奇？


故事还未结束，以后的故事会怎样，就在作者们的手中！手中的那支笔！加油！
故事应该会很精彩，但是纯属如JK Rowling作者们天马行空的想象，大家可不要对号入座咯！

She's got talent

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOuXGkyrPN4&feature=player_embedded

She's such a young girl. At such a tender age, she had already found her passion and got the courage to come up the stage to tell the world her vision. As an undergraduate I can't help but giving her salute and respect from the bottom of my heart. We shall also thank her mom for not killing her dream.

Everyone's got a passion for something in this world,

which can benefit the society and the living beings on this planet.

Why not pursue something that we are really interested in and make them a reality?

Some haven't got a dream. 

Many have ones but did not make it to the stage.

Don't leave it in our long forgotten bedtime stories.

The power is within us.

超有意思的无聊漫画！

无聊的心情果然与无聊的事情相应，一个不小心按进了这一个网站，这漫画实在是太可爱了，而且读到最后作者还有一篇超有意思的感言噢！原帖自小动物剧场

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其实有聊无聊也真的是人想出来的，那么多事情可以做，哪来的生命去浪费来无聊啊！？还不是因为自己的心太散了。真的要像妙赞法师说的一样，要从勤奋中打发无聊的时间啊。

刚刚我和钢琴说话去了。话说回来，我已有一年的时间没弹琴了，回到家时还真的兴奋地给了我家的钢琴一个抱抱，说我很想她！其实弹钢琴里头还真的有很深的学问的。那些音乐系的学生，不只是要研究曲子，有时候更要了解作曲家本身，还有他作这曲子时的时代背景，内心的情感以及作曲的动机，才能深深的感受到这曲子的意境，才能真正的演绎出这曲子如当年的辉煌！而且对初学者的我来说，要弹一首歌曲，不但是要克服技术上的问题，而最后还必须克服自己心理上的障碍，要相信自己真的能“跨”过曲子的一些困难的部分，才能把曲子最好的一面弹出来。虽然琴艺不佳，可是，总是告诉自己，能弹钢琴，就是幸福的。而且，曲子不因等级低而被轻视，能够好好的练习，正确地演绎，又能乐在其中，才是最重要的。练一曲，弹一曲，懂一曲，乐一曲。

好，讲完废话，我要去收拾房间了！

回家啦！

终于终于，一年一次，我又回家啦！嘿嘿！不知道为什么，在家在大马时候的我，和在外国活的自己，会是一个浑然不同的感觉。在大马有在大马的感觉，在英国又有在英国时候的感觉，飞回大马的途中，就好像有种更换季节的心情。害到我不禁问问身边的她，这是一件正常的事吗？还好她说，她也是这样的啊，不然我会觉得自己很奇怪。为什么我不能维持同一个自己的感觉啊？可能外在的因缘变了，内在的因缘也自然会随之改变吧！我不知道耶。那么，就让这好奇心自己萌芽吧。虽然回来后我又回到了大马的自己的感觉，可是，又察觉到这熟悉的味和一年前回来的感觉又不全然相同。哈哈。这种东西是很难被形容给别人听的！

这几天来，做了一些回来后最想做的事情！除了吃好吃的啦，有陪妈妈煮了一顿晚餐，跟爸爸妈咪享受天伦之乐，和知己出去逛了逛了街，去看看公公婆婆，带他们去吃东西。。今天，把时间留给自己，哪里都不想去，待在房间的自己，却无法不对自己那矛盾的心情感到好笑！懒惰出去，可是独自个儿在家里（父母都出去工作了）却感到有些无聊。好想有人在午餐时候带我出去走一走，谈谈天，然后回家面壁，哪怕两个小时我也很满足了。哈哈。在发白日梦了吧？

想想看，其实我可以在家做很多事情的，除了上网以外。我只是少了个谈天的伴吧了。不过还好这个时期不只是我一个无业游民待在家噢！哈哈哈！无聊时还可以skype一下她们，不错啦。不好意思，其实不想把这些无聊的话语放上部落格，因为有blog update这个东西，我总觉得浪费大家的时间精神与空间去阅读自己无聊的心情是件对不起读者的事，而且其实写这些东西也是很个人的啦。可是我太懒惰开新的部落格作为我宣泄的管道了，所以在未来这几个月，我会把这里变成超级无聊的部落格。不想看无聊post的朋友们请不要click进来啦，或把这个网址从你的部落格里删除吧！



其实我在家有做点东西啦！我刚刚才折完衣服！转个弯看见家里的laundry basket，前两天才给妈妈clear了，今天又八分满了，有些心疼，妈妈的衣服怎么都洗不完哪！妈咪，辛苦你了！

就让我这无业游民，尽一点绵力，至少不作家里的负担吧！

What defines a home

Where I can take a shower for as long as I can,
Where I can put on the most comfortable pyjamas I can find in my wardrobe,
Where I can sit in any posture that I want doing nothing of particular importance,
Where I am of no hurry to go to any where or to reach any destination,
Where I can reflect on what I did, untangle my messy thoughts and contemplate on what I came across;

It's not that I don't like travelling,
as travelling makes me realise the bliss of being at home.
And I love both.
Travelling is too tiring without a place to rest or to give a sense of belonging,
And staying in the comfort zone all the time without the courage to find out the unknown gives a life without its liveliness.

It's time to do all the unpacking of stuffs and get prepared for my placement tomorrow. =)

Nine o'clock at night. And it is still so bright,

 This is how the sky looks like,

 at this hour during Summer in Somerset.

Two more days to go, and I should throw an official goodbye to my MPharm 2nd year. 

Two more years to go. And it seems like I'll leave here forever. 

Days by days, weeks by weeks, that's how the time goes away, 

it never ticks a second faster or slower 

for anyone for any reason. 

So, the only thing that we can do to leave no regret is to cherish it, live it, breathe it, enjoy it.

Know what we are doing, and do what we want to do.

And when it passes away, let it go. 

Recall them sometimes with a smile on our face

that's how the memories deserves to serve, 

not for excessive indulgence and forgot that the time still ticks.

So as now I am doing my revision, 

I shall rmb and cherish this moment too!

Cause I'll never know when will I come across some of these knowledge again,

as I am so lazy to flip open my books when I'm free. Hahaha.

All the professors hate a student like me.

Hola! Pharmacy second year once in a life time! 

I'm still a second year Pharmacy student  for the last two days! 

Hehehehehehehehehe =D

星期天

今天是星期天噢。在大马的时候我应该还在呼呼大睡，躺在床上滚来滚去不肯起床吧。然后妈咪和爸爸就会很生气地唠叨我，都几点了还在睡？！平时妈咪还会很geli地拿她刚洗的衣服贴在我惺忪的脸上，想要把我给凉醒了，不然就袭击我，古叽我直到我的反击为止。还睡？阿爸的绝招就是把我的整个被单拉起来，然我在床上无所遁形，像一只可怜的毛毛虫在还未变成蝴蝶时就被人把整个蛹狠狠地拔出来一样！呜呜。。没那么浪漫啦，还敢赖床？真的没吃过rotan噢。通常看见爸爸包青天的铁脸，我用跑的都跑去厕所刷牙去了!

说也奇怪，离开了父母温暖的怀抱，公主的床垫，在宿舍，在异乡时，反而比任何时候来得更自律了。温暖的床铺对我再也没有过大的吸引力（可能是都比不上家里的双人床吧，可以从东滚到西边去），尤其是考试期间，有时候九点多起床我都觉得好像很迟了也！可能是因为知道没有人可撒娇，依赖，所以就会更警觉，不然太阳晒到屁股都没有人会理我噢。怎么突然间有一种被遗弃的感觉。哈哈。是因为这样子，我更学会了爱自己，珍惜自己啊。

星期六，我通常都是自己在家，悠哉游哉，享受自己独处的时间。吃着早餐看着电视，最怀念的还是小时候七早八早起来看tv2 的美少女战士，或是七龙珠，接着是Disney的和 Cardcaptor Sakura。不然在婆婆家咧，更棒！有Power puff girls, Dexter Lab, 好多等等。感谢小舅，为我婆婆装置了这么棒的astro，还留了cartoon network给我婆婆（我）看！哈哈！现在看本地节目，怎么全部都是打架的卡通片啊！现在的小孩子好不浪漫噢，他们的戏都吸引不到我这个大小孩了。

在外地，因为没有电视节目，没有特别的家庭活动，有时候会掉入每一天都是千篇一律的小圈圈。温习着功课，想起今天是礼拜，于是真的好想看一集Sailormoon, 做一些周末才做的小事提醒着我今天又是星期天咯。哈哈。

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无论生活是高是低，是肥是瘦，是平淡还是沧桑，我想到最后，留在我们心中的都会是那些小小的平淡又甜甜的回忆吧。所以不用怕，再大的困难也都会过去的，只有甜美的会留下，就像那抹不去的童年记忆，能让我们一生细细地回味。

“月灵的力量，变身~~”

星期五

今天，走路到小镇。我的朋友听说我走路去，感到很惊讶！呀呀，原来我在他的心中是好一个懒人噢！
和朋友相伴，一路摇呀摇走到了market，看见market我便有一种说不出的开心涌上心头，就好像一位阿婶看见便宜的菜那么开心一样。接着便和朋友们成群结队（其实也只是我们四个，哈哈）到starbucks 去喝打折的frappucino，第一次order这饮品的我竟然还gongtutu地叫了一个奇怪的口味组合：mocha加豆奶加peppermint cream和whipped cream，which is really 有点怪，但是mocha喝起来还真的很不错噢！难怪我的小小一杯比其他人贵那30 几p，是因为我叫太多东西了。最后还有到Sainsbury去买点东西，最开心还是能够搭上巴士直接到家。果然，我真的是很懒惰，哈哈。

回到家，便悠哉游哉地坐下，突然很有心情地去阅读艾林姐在面子书的文章。啊，看了心情更加愉悦。看她的文章，能够直接感受到她那说不出的潇洒和气质。看她的文章，总是提醒着我，每一个当下，要细细地去体会，去品尝。我相信，总有一天，我会体会我心中真正想要的旅行。一个自由，快乐，没有拘束的旅行。这个体验不是不存在，只是我还没有体会到。也许再我的心灵成长一点点，我才能明了。我这么相信着。我的窗口看不见美丽的日落，可是日落依旧是美丽的。看日落，看见橙黄的余光，总有一种很写意的感觉。

啊，虽然考试在即，但是这一出门，身与心都得到了放松，感觉自己是活着的，是多么的幸福啊！

不知道大家有没有这样问过自己呢？如果你做着某件你认为对你很重要的事，可是，在做的当儿，你不开心，或者说，你并没有真正地快乐，那为什么你还要去做呢？我问自己，如果我为了考试而读书，因为时间紧迫，我读得不开心；考试时，我考得不开心；考完试后，我感到心灵很空，虽然轻松了，我也没有真正地感到快乐。在为目标奋斗的过程和达到目标的时候，我并没有真正地感到快乐，那，为什么我还要去做呢？考试考得好，最多也是个自了汉，自己感到得意，但是这种快乐，是很短的，就像微风吹过树枝摇摆一样。课本上的知识，倘若我真的能运用在生活上，利自利人，那么我这么辛苦，都是值得的。所以，当我发现自己不快乐，是自己的心态上出了问题。当然，书，还是要读，既然要读，那么就开开心心地踏上探索的旅程吧！不然，如果不快乐，为什么还要去做呢？=）

Mrs and Mr.

Today is Roger Hargreaves birthday! Eh emm, actually I also don't know who he is until google home page told me that it is his birthday. haha. According to google, he is a British author and illustrator for children's book. Accidentally came across all his little cute pictures and can't help it'ssss really cute!

Being Mr. Lazy can be really comfy but beaware of the disasters coming! 

194!! haha

Hope that we are as strong as him and as wise as  her when dealing with stress

Miss brainy I am -  always thinks too much!

he likes to visit me whenever i am revising...

I am shy. Yes. Shy. haha.

oh poor Chi chin and maria, our friend who sneeze non stop whenever they are in our house!

Life is not a life without them definitely!

good luck~

Holiday, it's holiday

It has been a week of holiday and two weeks left to the exams.
Now I can feel the stress, although I am not willing to admit this. Although I looked as if I am so calm reading my notes, I can sometimes feel a racing heart and become restless after sitting and studying for few minutes. Gone through some self diagnosis (well am actually studying about anxiety and axiolytics) now I know these are all the symptoms of Anxiety! Oh gosh~ I am not as non-stressful as I think of myself is.

To kill the time with two stones, a bit of revision plus blogging:

- Cortex: negative cognition
As I was revising, the whispers of my heart actually constantly asking me to remember everything on the notes! There's not much time left!
- Amygdala: Fear perception
Sensory input goes to amygdala. At this moment, my amygdala must be saying "2 WEEks left~~~!!! You may not be able to finish your revision!!!!"
- Hippocampus: Memory
hippocampus will try to remind be of all the bad experience or trauma that I have that make me anxious. Oh that must be those stressful moments when I have to chuck everything into my brain within like say? 24 hours? And this is of course not a pleasant moment to enjoy.

And so, amygdala when percept the input as fear will then affect the diffuse system in my brain. The serotonin level is lowered, which means my happiness is diminishing now! And it activates my HPA and sympathetic overdrive, making me alert and prepare to fight! (fight or flight- Can I choose flight instead?)

- Basal ganglia and cerebellum: Movement
So there are different ways of dealing with stress. One of them is behavioural avoidance. I suppose that's the reason why everytime when we are revising, we have the tendency to click, on facebook, blogger..as a means of avoiding the stress on my study table. And hence exercising may help destress too!

When i am getting more and more stressful as i study along:
Heart, could be felt, pumping a bit quicker
Mind, restlessness, keeps on wandering; or too concentrated
Mood, irritable; Wants to be quick, quick and quick!
And I can even feel that my shoulders become very stiff

I will try to pull myself back a little while, preventing those subsconsious perception and thoughts creating more stress. And relaxing my back and body is quite an efficient way to destress.

Sometimes our brain needs a bit of reminder.
Hey! No matter how busy we are, we are actually in a holiday!
Studying is suppose to be enjoyable as I know more about how our body is functioning.
Don't think too much, just do it. Revise it. Normally it is the thinnking that creates the fear. And most of all ( the most effective anecdote) Studying is not about how well you remember for the exam, if you treat gaining knowledge as a way to help people in the future, you will not be bogged down by the exam ( thinking  only about your ownself creates stress).

Really, it is holiday now, and studying should be fun! And I don't care about the marks! *pretending* Haha. Happy studying!

Simple

Today I have met someone who is really simple. I don't know him much, but then I started like a police interrogating him with lotsa questions. A lot of questions asking about his latar belakang from top to toe, from in to out. hehehe..

And from what he said and answer,
he is really a simple guy.
I  can hardly imagine how a simple person looks like.
And now there is this very simply guy in front of me.
He is just, that. And he is really happy for that.
I nearly forgot the feeling of being simple.
And I wish to be as simple as him.
Sometimes I just think too much,
And now I realised
sometimes I just get too attached matters that I am not even noticed of.
And I want it not to be changed. I always want it to be in that way.
In the end, the suffering comes not from the changing situations,
but the mind that get too attached to it and doesnt want any changes.

It's time for growth. Purify the mind and let go of the attachment.
And let myself come back and sort it out.
Simple.

这世界，很复杂，或许充满着形形色色各种各类的人；

自己需要的，别人未必需要。

别人期盼的，自己未必能够办得到。

这是一个成长的过程

但是，很高兴的是，

在遇到挫折时，有一群知心的朋友

给与安慰，给予欢笑。

希望在这过程中

坚守稚心

增长善心

散播爱心

开开心心地好好走下去。＝）

羽球，巧克力，温馨的越南小食

今天只有一堂课噢
上完课后便和朋友们去打羽球
有个外国朋友好厉害哟，
她在短短的两个小时内学会了如何开球和接球
而且还算是无事自通噢！
然后咱们到报纸摊子去买40p的Divine巧克力~~
我一口气买了四份报纸！
grab了两个white 和两个dark chocolate *hehe!*
路上经过图书馆
立刻被parade上摆booth的越南学会给吸引了过去
因为他们的桌子上摆了好多小食！
和一位越南朋友打了招呼
也有许多越南的学生向我们介绍他们的食物
和我们索取资料和拍照等
亲切的越南学生
散发出一种很纯朴，很友善的感觉。
他们的小食有：sticky rice

springroll

springroll真的好好吃哦！有三中口味
jes还连续吃了人家五个
我吃了三个
嘿嘿，难怪有几个负责的学生
开始盯着我们看了！
接着到spain的摊子去，
品尝了他们的tortilla de patata 还有一种饼干之类的东西。
好吃，好吃！就这样这些食物就变成我的午餐了。嘿嘿。
才发现原来今天是咱们大学的Many festivals on hill.
是推广不同文化的活动之一。

能够认识别人的文化也是一件幸福的事。

英国的母亲节

真的好巧噢
下个星期是妈咪的生日
也恰恰是英国的母亲节!
走进卡片店屋里
几乎都摆满了母亲节的卡片
要买个写着happy birthday mom的还真的不容易耶！

买了一张大大的卡

而左思右想的礼物
从实体的枕头化为一片爱心
送去给远方的他们
愿大家平安，喜悦~

今天，把这大大的卡寄出去了
静悄悄地等待
她收到生日卡时的惊奇与喜悦！
哇哈哈。。

待我回来后，咱们买个oven，
亲手弄个蛋糕给您吃，好吗？:)

人人都把迎春花儿爱
无忧无虑乐自在
年华似水容易过呀
切莫再延挨
莫延挨呀 莫延挨呀 时光不等待~


Sounds so true. Stop wandering. Stop procastinating. Do important things first.

Wonderful evening

Just have a really wonderful evening by listening to Ajahn's Brahm's talk with Yean. Just like any other talks by this great monk, it is full of inspirational quotes and hilarious jokes. And most importantly the Dhamma is really something related to how we are now: Being a Buddhist in a country where people may not know what religion it is and how should we behold ourselves and other non Buddhist friends and live harmoniously with one another.

Sometimes, we have to be innovative too!

" Whatever you expect it to be, it will always be something different."

"Doing a thing is easy, thinking is hard."

So, just do it! I shouldn't have keep thinking about doing revision but I should do it instead! Well, okay yes! Haha. There I go! :)

It's kind of amusing to look back the interaction between I and a friend by clicking "See friendship"in the facebook.
As I scrolled down, I realised that I kind of forgot around 60% what that post meant or what situation it was that make us commenting on it.
It is also an indicator of how a friendship grows, in the facebook.

I am actually searching for a piece of article written by an Ajahn which I could not remember his name. I never saw him neither. I was tagged on the article and read it months ago, but I didn't really make a note of it because I thought that it will just be easy to find it in facebook when I want to read it again. But after just a few months, now it is nowhere to be found, because there isn't an option to trace back all the links posted in facebook. The words from the article occasionally emerge from my mind but there is no way I can find back the complete version now.  I learned my lesson for not cherishing such a nice article and make my effort to keep it.

So, is there is any article that you may come across somewhere, not written by you nor your close friends, if you appreciate it, remember to save it somewhere in your laptop. It is worth spending a few minutes doing it for a lifetime appreciation of the piece of work at different stages of life. =)

Interesting neurotransmitters

I can't write about love no more
I should be feeling sad 
Now I know it wasn't you 
Who drove me mad 

It was that chemical stuff in my head 

Oh lalalalalalalalala 
Phenylethylamine 
Can't get enough 
Oh oh lalalalalala l'amour 

Noradrenaline 

Je comprends ~~

It makes me awake to have such an interesting lecture about amine neurotransmitters at 4pm when I am supposed to be half dead and it starts with this lyrics!

Got to know some trivias that might interest the Science students...

Noradrenaline (NA) is the love chemical!
It is said that feeling of being in love or in a crush is like having a NA rush in your body. Increasing NA in our brain gives us arousal and elevates our mood whereas depletion of it may be involved in depression. Sad to say, we are not able to increase NA concentration by taking tablets containing its precursors tyrosine because, the enzyme involved in the synthesis is saturated. So..what to do, you cannot create the feeling of being in love by taking tablets!

Dopamine is the addiction chemical! 
DA is involed in the control of attention, emotion and reward pathway. Also, the regulation of DA system in our brain is related to addiction of human beings to cocaine, amphetamine, cigarette and alcohol. It is said that because these drugs abuse may increase DA activity, which is linked to the reward pathway giving us a sense of pleasure. Hmmm, poor people, fooled by our own brain.

5HT (Serotonin) is the happiness chemical!
Serotonin is what gives us the feeling of happiness! High level of serotonin makes us awake and according to my lecture notes, it also makes us eat less and lose weight! On the other hand, low level serotonin gives you sleepiness and sedation and stimulate the feeding centre, which you tend to eat more.
see this! http://www.cartoonistgroup.com/store/add.php?iid=39023#second

And finally
Acetylcholine is the memory chemical!

Hahaha...Our brain is an amazing thing stuffed with all those complex systems of neurotransmitters! Hope there will be more fun coming on. hehehe.

Reward system

Have been doing some readings about Parkinson's Disease, which is the topic of my PBL presentation in this term. Came across a term about " Reward Pathway" and thus try to wikipedia it to have a glimpse what is it about. It is really interesting to know some trivia facts about how our brain works in the reward system.

"In neuroscience, the reward system is a collection of brain structures which attempts to regulate and control behavior by inducing pleasurable effects.


A psychological reward is a process that reinforces behavior — something that, when offered, causes a behavior to increase in intensity. Reward is an operational concept for describing the positive value an individual ascribes to an object, behavioral act or an internal physical state. Natural rewards include those that are necessary for the survival of species, such as eating, drinking, sex, and fighting. Rewards induce learning, approach behavior and feelings of positive emotions."


And most importantly,


"Rewards are generally considered more effective than punishment in enforcing positive behaviour.^[2] "


This sentence reminds me of what Ajahn Brahm said before which sounds like this, " Forgive yourself of whatever mistakes you did before and set yourself free. You don't learn from your mistakes! You learn most from what that can inspire you most. "


Perhaps that can be quite true! Now looking back our education system, the exam system tend to deduct marks and punish those who make mistakes. Consequently, we as students are really scared to make even a single bit of error, because we are scared of losing marks. It is said that this forms a kind of habit of being afraid and avoiding making mistakes and hence we become less and less creative in our way of thinking. We are somehow trained to do things that we are familiar with, excellently, and we are so afraid of trying new things, exploring unknown stuffs because we are fear of the unknown that increases the possibility of making errors! 


Anyway, I digress too much! I just found out that I lost quite some marks in my studies and I was in real grief about it. Now i am not inspired at all to be a better pharmacist from the mistakes i made. They should give me some rewards e.g. sweets, chocolate for realising my error instead of deducting my mark then. Hmph~ :P

Live.Love.Let go.

I had been seeing this big title on the advertisement board for 3 months during my last summer, on my way to UCSI. And it attracted me so much that I kept on telling dudu that I wanna watch this movie. And I never knew this is not the title of the movie actually. I have totally overlooked the big font of Charlie St Cloud. XD

Finally watched it during dinner today. hehehe. Would rate 3.5 out of 5.

Tmr would be Valentine's Day! Happy Valentine's Day!!! I don't know where the excitement comes from but..it's just sth worth happy-ing...heheh..Last few weeks when we were walking back home, I was on my imagination roller coaster how romantic it can be where Yean became the spoiler of my script! Isk! I said the prince will bring the girl to the candle light dinner. He poured a glass of wine for her. Then Yean said, he accidentally poured on her dress. Ish Ish. spoiler. haha.

And few weeks more it would be Pancake's Day!! There's absolutely  no reason not to have pancake on that day.

Too bad Valentine's Day is not a public holiday. That means I gotta stop dreaming and continue printing my notes. Bye sweeties. =)

Welcome the new family member!

We have a new family member~~~~~

Ta-da!!!

Her name is..not yet think, just call her yong meh meh! And she is from University of Harvard o!
Presented by a senior who just came back from his placement in Harvard.
Oh my, the soft toys are increasing ( Jes has one new toy to abuse )

踮脚的习惯

今天我的housemates们严重地告诉我that
我有站着踮脚的习惯！
而且，她们还研究到
我在外面时是不会那么失礼的，
而是当我感到非常relax的时候才会不知不觉地把一边的脚踮起来！
还有当我站在楼梯上时
我都会把一只脚放在上一层的楼梯
dudu说很粗鲁窝
可是事实证明也有女子是这样站的
（我们在地铁电梯偷偷看别人的站姿hehe）

然后她们讲我走路也很奇怪耶！
很不好看吗？
可是我觉得还好耶！！而且这么站真的满舒服的
脚板也可以通通风
哈哈哈~~

后来我自己回房反省一下，
发现我在折衣服，停下来时都会这样哦！
而且那时候我的心情是很开心的
ohmy~~ 真的有那么难看吗？
哈哈哈~~
有时真的要别人才看得到自己的习惯！
暂时觉得不怎么样窝
下次我会踮得斯文一点啦！


This is how i like to stand gua!

从心开始

新的学期开始了，生活渐渐变得有规律。
每一个开始，新的心态，都让我别有一番的冲劲！哈！

今天第一次走到大大的阳台那里，顶着大大的太阳
吃厚厚软软的Braces面包，
瞻望而去是一片绿色的草原和湖水
还有一群在蓝空中回旋的鸟儿
wahseh，真的有那种常常在电视看见的
外国人很悠闲地坐在cafe外面喝着咖啡
要么写写小说，要么看看世界的心情
那种我常常憧憬的感觉终于给我体会到了！哈哈！
虽然我的脸皮曝晒在强烈的紫外线下，
但是天气依然是冷的。再暖点就好了。

因为新的开始，一切的感觉是如此新鲜，
希望自己有一颗不会容易疲惫的心，
每天都是一个新的开始。加油噢！^^

前年的秋天，生涩的我们。

新年要比旧年好。=)

Happy Chinese New Year!!!
Now only I am reminded that Chinese New Year also means the coming of Spring!
Last year I read the article below; And Chinese New Year reminds me of the article again.

新年要比舊年好

--佛使比丘文，山人譯

新的心，比新的年好，

也就是：比以前明白更多，智慧更宽广，

让自己能够

超越痛苦、站起来。

新的一年比旧年好，

只要新没有好，也不好。

口说得好，但心不好，有何用？

被鬼笑，值得吗？

更清净、更光明、更安详，

才叫做“新”，向前进，别惺忪愚昧。

更靠近涅盘，别迷失。

若这样：我们才算有真正的“新年”。

The first day of Feb 2011

Have gone to Sainsbury to buy groceries for Chinese New Year today.
Have an early dinner and the fried chickens that we bought from Co-op were really nice!

The thick soft bread with peanut butter or Red pepper Houmous spread on is sooo delicious. The thick bread particularly reminds me of the roti bakar that I ate in Singapore with Otak otak on it.

Have recently fallen in love with baking. How can I live without a lovely oven? Gonna ask my mom to buy an oven when I get back to Malaysia. haha.

Tmr gonna have little Hovis pancakes and a cup of Hot Nescolate ( Nescafe plus hot chocolate ) as my breakfast. Am looking forward to tmr's night reunion dinner too! Yay! 

Good night!

新年，长大了！

新年要到咯！
一考完试后，大家就开始为我们的家来个大扫除，
并且用有限的材料布置我们的客厅。
可是这一点也没有难倒ah JOO和ah Du噢，
她们甚至想到把巧克力硬币贴在墙壁上！**创意加分** 嘿嘿~~

有Mr Tan的贺年卡，有Fuixian好友千里迢迢送来的卡，有Sinyee妈妈的爱心兔和爱心卡~嘿嘿~

已list下了一连串
新年时要弄得甜品，食物
以及为特地从远方到来的Mancunians &Londonians
新年Steamboat的食材。
这一次，我真的觉得
我们都已经长大了！

以前新年我只管开心地玩，
也觉得新年好麻烦要准备好多年货，
可是今年第一次，
我们就像我们的父母一样，
在想要准备买几只鸡，几瓶汽水给大家喝，
要买什么新年糖果给客人吃，
那里比较便宜，
结果昨天tesco的online delivery 前所未有的贵！
我们成功地破了一百磅的纪录 ~ *恭喜大家*
而且我们过后还要去Sainsbury买一些肉
和到华人店去买一些面。
虽然好像很麻烦，
不过其实我们是乐在其中的！
Ah joo还说拜年时大家都要穿旗袍或红色象征性的衣服！
而且会到朋友家去拜年。呵呵。

可是我最近真的吃很多，
大家如果见到脸肿腿肿的我，
请不要见怪，
我现在是在人生中最肥的时刻了！

新年还有花儿的相伴以及“旺来”~

整屋子都有新年的气息噢！
敞开大门，
欢迎大家在新年齐聚一堂
这将会是一个美好难忘的回忆！

半退休生活

花了一整个星期的时间，终于把房间收拾干净了！
考试前天天早睡，考试后天天迟睡。
考完试后真的有如释重负的感觉，
每天待在家当个不折不扣的宅女，
过着悠哉悠哉的半退休生活，
竟然更胜过出去逛街购物的兴奋！
生活节奏慢半拍，又睡至日上三竿才起床，
虽然很宅，但是日子过得还不错我~

考试后第一天和第二天晚上都到不同的朋友家吃晚餐，
看了超无厘头的漫画电影Scott Pilgrim：

在考试期间看完了《王子变青蛙》，没想到这部偶像剧194还竟然看了两遍，而我却是第一次在这里看~ Oh no~
第三天看了感人又好笑的《听说》，晚上咱们就到Brasserie Gerard 吃晚餐，还真的蛮好吃喔；过不久又看了另一部彭宇晏主演的《近在咫尺的爱恋》.噢，还有Wanjoo 介绍的Old Miss Diaries, 在youtube 可以找到几个有subtitle的片断，也是超搞笑的耶！然后hor，经wanjoo 介绍，我们才知道原来啊，Jolin 的特务J专辑的歌是一部三部曲的音乐电影，只可惜金载沅在mv中很快就被女特务给杀死了。


现在正在追看：寻秦记！！！对啦，也是一部轰动一时的连续剧，不知道为什么那个时候我就是没有看叻！古天乐真的超搞笑的耶！最好笑莫过于他和古代人有的没的乱搭的对话！哈哈！


在家里太得空了嘛，于是dudu煮了超好喝的雪耳糖水！
她一直说：“你不会想知道我放了多少的糖！”
Ohmy，after 考试，我的stomach变成了无底洞，对食物完全没有抵抗力了！
只要有吃的，好吃的，吃饱了还是会拿来吃！
这是考完试后的症状吗？只要有吃的都会很开心。哈哈。


星期六到了Oxford去游玩。
还好有Andrew的朋友当我们的tour guide，我们又认识多几个新朋友啦！嘿嘿！
去看了HarryPotter 拍电影的地方，感觉那个hall 好小噢！结果到了傍晚，我们便把整个oxford看完了，于是便决定补买多一张票，早点回家！


昨天兴致勃勃，bake了一些chocolate puddings，然后一起看了刘德华饰演狄仁杰的《通天帝国》。加上《寻秦记》的熏陶，让我对中国的历史起了浓厚的兴趣！
P.S.：原来，完璧归赵的背后是有这么精彩的故事的！大家不妨去找找看。

虽然现在英国的天气超级冷，内心却是超级暖。
有一班超级可爱，超级爱笑的朋友，
每天都感觉超幸福的。