The end of the world

Before the so-called end of era comes, it has grabbed so many attention. Why? Because of the deep-down in our heart we fear of the coming of the death, and we are also intensely curious of what will happen when death really comes, and what will happen if we all died together? Will it really happen on us? We are frightened but somehow we want to know what will happen when the time comes.

However, when the so-called end didn’t come, we laugh indifferently and said, “ That’s not the end of the world! Hah! I knew it is just a joke.” We said this as if we will never die, as if we have forgotten uncertainties will wash anything away anytime. And today could be the end of the world for someone living on earth, so how can we say that this is not the end for him / her and how can we be sure our death is not near to us? That is such a great misinterpretation. However, if we are not aware of the fleeting of time, if we still continue in our circles of habits and worldly pleasures, no matter how long we live on earth, without realizing this life will still come to an end. And that time, we will experience the same kind of fear for the end of the world, and that is the real end to our life. If we never worked on our mind and explore the true nature of this world, how can we overcome the fear and pass away peacefully when you don’t know where you will be going? If we came to deeply realize that death is always our final destination, we might choose to live our life in a different way. If we know there’s life after this life according to Buddhist concepts, we will choose to do more good deeds to get more happiness and hope for a better life after this, or even better future. We will focus more on building our virtues and the inner qualities in us, because that’s the only thing we can bring away with us after our death. We will want to live happily right here and right now because there is no need to sit and wait for happiness in the future.  As the past has always past and the future never comes.

If we truly accept the fact that we soon gonna die and we don’t know when exactly we will die, we will live our life truthfully and prepare ourself to face death at anytime. This is not a pessimistic view, this is a realistic point of view. Imagine when we have overcome the fear and not to be bothered by the fear of death, does it still matter if the-end-of-the world come or not? 

If the end comes, let it be the end of our stupidity and wrongful acts. May we grow more wisdom and realise the true meaning of our life and the natural phenomena around us.

P.S. : in this piece, I have stopped being a perfectionist. Well that's my true voice from the heart. and I feel great!

The christmas market

The christmas market

A cup of hot spiced apple juice
A few packets of Chou chou peanuts
Bratwurst with curry ketchup sauce
Crispy pork belly
and a great friend who is still around with you after the sky has turned dark

What we need is not that much
A great moment of joy is not that far
And all that makes a great pre-christmas night for me :)))

A card from mom

开心

Today I received a card in a pink envelope. My name and address was typed on it. Looking at the back, what? it's my home adress. It must be my mom who said she want to post a card to me (despite that it was a few days before my birthday!) I said no need since it is already that late, but she insisted that. So she quietly did so.

Oh, it's my first time ever in life to receive a birthday card from my parents, come to think of that. Haha! That is so sweet although not that surprising :P My mom's handwriting is still as usual, so neat and much more elegant than mine. Awwww,my heart is full of love. Althought the internet is so advanced now, a card made of paper sent by post still make a big impact to the person who receive it. It is something you can touch and hold dearly to your heart.......And something I can put at a corner of my room. Awwwww...

Like the quote in the card saying,
"Having you as a daughter has brought some wonderful feelings...
happiness at seeing you grow into such a kind, giving person,
pride in the way you follow your dreams, 
and love -just for being the incredible daughter you are!"

Love makes the world go round!

August

一年过去了，我把这本书郑重地盖上了。

在Boots 的最后一天，是我近期来吃过最好吃的Fish and chips! hehe

 腐竹薏米糖水

 Banana Sundae haha...

Bye~

John Lennon

Remember the time when John Lennon sang to us across the space and time in London Olympics 2012 closing ceremony? I was a little moved by the presence of him and his voice beautifully singing out his imagination.

And this morning whilst sharing it with my friend, it led me to explore John Lennon's life and his other songs. It is rather saddening to know that he was actually murdered in New York at his glorious age of 40. Otherwise, he would have been on the same stage on Paul McCartney singing his best songs for the Olympics.

One click leads to another. That's how I found his other songs which are equally stunning and pleasing to ear.   E.g. The beautiful boy, woman, give peace a chance, etc. He can easily express himself without much words.   He just sings his thoughts out along with the flow of the melody. He is such a diamond and I wonder why I only start appreciating him that late? hehe..


Oh such a beautiful fatherly love.
I believe every dad has the same feeling like John when looking through the eyes of their kids.

And this one:


Only a great composer can come out with these lyrics.

We're playing those mind games together

Pushing the barriers planting seeds

Playing the mind guerrilla

Chanting the Mantra peace on earth

We all been playing those mind games forever

Some kinda druid dudes lifting the veil

Doing the mind guerrilla

Some call it magic the search for the grail

Love is the answer and you know that for sure

Love is a flower you got to let it grow

And Yes will be the answer to put all the mind guerrillas into peace. Yes I made up my mind for where I go in the end of August. :)
Glad that I know a little bit more about him today!

一念执着步步惊心

一眼之念，一念执着于步步惊心~ >.<

首先是被这三首歌吸引着
然后想起朋友介绍
结果 就完全中毒啦！
这几天都是看到两点才睡觉 煲剧
好久都没这样做了

看完了 有点意犹未尽
在慢慢回味

非常喜欢八爷和若稀在一起的甜蜜时光！
是整部剧里最浪漫最唯美的情节
即使若稀狠下心来与他决别
八爷始终是那一位风度翩翩，在远处默默护她帮她，不让她受委屈的人~~

八爷是温柔的
四爷是深情的
既然是一个爱情故事，就难免把角色的情感都放大，也把雍正人性化许多了
更钦佩的是作者把这些唯美的故事穿插在真实的清朝时代的历史里
把原本虚幻的爱情故事弄得较为真实
看着剧情，才发现历史里真的有这么多真实之时
九王夺嫡，八爷献海东狮，雍正对兄弟们的残忍
真的很有趣！好像把历史重现在眼前一样（若稀的故事除外）

震撼一时的九王夺嫡，雍正的辉煌时代
可都奈何不了时间的无常
即使万般不舍
仍需面对那生离死别
最后就好像一场好长的梦
发生的故事 变成了片片的回忆
岁月匆匆而去
现在只剩历史让世人去回味了。

今天

宁夏

天空 蔚蓝无云 是蓝天

我 懒洋洋 靠在窗边 

阳光 挡不住的光线 遍照房间

被风吹过的夏天

英国的夏天

您好

Sleep and placement

I have troubles getting enough sleep recently due to all those travelling trips and irregular lifestyle. And now I realise that getting enough sleep is so IMPORTANT for a working man. Otherwise the consequences would be just like what happen to me: I have yet to fully recover from my ticklish throat and cough, and I have been doing my work at an incredibly slow pace since this morning. When I was doing the labelling, my eyelids were so heavy that I couldn't help but yawn a few times in the dispensary. I also found myself really HARD to focus on the stuff that I am doing - even if that means taking the right medicine from the shelves - and every task seems to be so mentally straining for me. Never know the jobs of pharmacist and dispenser is that mentally demanding until I am deprived of sleep!

Imagine you have such a sleepy pharmacist at work. That will put the patient's health in great danger isn't it?? So therefore, to uphold the first principle of being a pharmacist which is to put patient's interest my first concern, I really have to sleep early today to ensure I have sufficient energy to manage my workload!

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And hence the long-awaiting summer placement started! It's my third day of working in a local Boots store and I still think that it's quite exciting! There are many new things to learn, many challenges and tests ahead as part of our training to develop our knowledge and skills. I am working in a store with a manageable workload. This is really what I wished for after getting a one-week experience in a super hectic Lloyds pharmacy last year. Maybe my wish was too strong and hence it was granted! Haha. Everything is so far so good, the staff there are really nice and friendly. I did make quite some silly mistakes and have to trouble the dispensers all the time to teach me or fix the problems that I have created due to all the unfamiliarity to the dispensing system!

 I feel like it is really a very good opportunity to finally put what I have learned to practice. Knowledge and practice is like two different worlds to me. One can be really knowledgeable but to be professional we need an integration of knowledge, ethics and hands-on experience. So I shall really appreciate the chance given and make full use of it!

 Go go Carol go~

美丽的雨天

那，又是一个细雨绵绵的傍晚。我缓缓地走在回家的路上。
不远处的路边有几滩堆积的雨水，我才转身走在这条路的行人道上，便见一辆车子经过时，轻轻地把雨水溅上了行人道。
也许是本能反应吧！我突然停下了脚步，想等待陆续而来的车辆都过了后才走过去，以避免“路边滩”弄脏了衣服。
哈，也是因为过去的经验吧！还记得，在大马，还念着高中时，走在一个曾经下过大雨的路旁，我和朋友被快速行驶的车子溅了一身的水。哈哈，想起来还真的别有一番风味呢！

想着这有趣的往事，我的眼神放空了。这时，看见下一辆货车以正常速度驾驶，却巧妙地避开了路边的雨水。我震惊了一下，自然地望进车镜里。啊！那位货车司机正灿烂地向我微笑，还举起拇指和我比个“good”的手势！原来啊，他看见我走着然后停了下来，似乎猜透了我的想法，所以便贴心地把车子驾远离那潭水。而我也自然地笑开了，向他比了同样的手势 -- GOOD！

虽然我还没真的走到那“路边滩”，可是那短短几秒钟所发生的事情--只因那一位司机的一个善念，一个贴心的举动，我的心中顿时充满了温暖。之后的几辆车，也许是看见我和这司机的“隔空互动”吧，也纷纷避免辗过路边的雨水。

这再次让我感受到人间的温暖。

一个在大马，一个在英国，两个浑然不同的体验。这么说，不是因为地方的不同。与其看英国是如何的先进，不如看看和学习他们平日待人处事的态度。生活在这里（至少在巴斯吧），帮助别人，为别人设想，哪怕是路边的陌生人，都是非常自然和理所当然的事情。走在街道上，是有安全感的，就算是晚上九点钟；当你看起来迷路了，会有一两位居民主动问你是否需要帮助；当看见路上有人需要帮助时，许多人都会义不容辞过去帮忙。人们没有极强的防备之心，无论走到哪里，感觉是满安全的。

所以，很感恩，英国的祖先们遗留了这么美丽的文化给这里的孩子们！

Summer 2012

Yaa.....The exams are finally over and summer has silently arrived. The weather in these few days are particularly good and can be best described with a Chinese idiom "风和日丽"! It is warm and sunny but having the cool breeze blowing past our skins make the weather a little different from the hot humid weather in Malaysia.

I was just back from a fantastic Poland trip two days ago, with a weight gain of 3 kg after constantly stuffing food into my stomach! And the Polish food tastes quite good as it's new to our appetite..and it is cheap and nice. There's so much good memories there, which I would like to write something about it when I'm free!

Know what's one of the happiest thing I did during my stressful revision period? That is - imagining how would I spend my summer time in UK! This summer I have finally decided to stay back, partly because I have secured a summer placement with Boots Pharmacy here and partly also because it is now my third year already. Btw, I am really looking forward to the placement in the community pharmacy - it is so exciting as I can finally apply what I have learned so far and gain more experience regarding my profession. There's so much to learn from the system they have here - one of the best organisations which constantly strives for excellence and upholds the quality of care to the patients.

And...there's another important update in my life. Did I tell that I worked in the Minerva chocolate shop? I   finally learned how to make different kinds of coffees and desserts, and some days later I might even learn how to make chocolates (well, if I work that long). This is definitely one of the best things I have done during my student life, and I am glad that I have finally fulfilled this tiny little dream in my mind!


Oh yeah, back to imagining what I am going to do during this summer~ I have just spent a lil time to scribble down what I'm going to do during these few months ( just in case I'll be lazy and forgot about them and then I will complain of no time for doing them when the term starts!)

There it goes:

SUMMER 2012~

WHAT OUGHT TO BE DONE??

Revision

Organise and back up my photo albums

Download some songs

Plan itinerary to Switzerland

Tidy up my books and room

Keep fit!

What I wanna do in summer~~ ^^

Baking! Pass at least beginner level – I wanna bake cheese cake, muffins, cookies, sponge cake…

Improvise my cooking skills without exceeding the budget, though!

Travelling around - Cycling!

Sept: a musical trip

Visit around UK- Lavender field?? Hehe

Read some books?? Story books :D

Writing and recording some memories of life.

Some dharma input~

Yeah, baking - it has been such a long time since I last baked! And with two baking experts in my house (my housemates) I should grab the golden chance to learn from them!  At least by the end of the hol I should know what means by " light and fluffy", "pale white"..lol. I can never know how it should look like when the recipe states that.

And what I will be doing in June?


BBQ
Switzerland trip 
Attending Dalai Lama's dharma talks
Trip to Manchester and Lake district
(end of June ) Start placement!

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今天又看了半集的ON CALL啦！＊请不要打我，虽然我看得很慢，但是我很享受！＊

“不是每个人早上出门时，都能确保自己平平安安地回家的。”

相信是大家早已耳熟能详的吧？

“你现在四肢健全，没病没痛，有权选择做自己想要做的事情，是几多人整个辈子都想要的东西，你知道吗？”



（不好意思，句子全凭记忆撰写）

听了这句话，脑海中突然掠过以前贫穷人家，当劳役的人，他们为了三餐温饱，只能埋头苦干，生命何曾给了他们选择的机会，过自己喜欢过的日子？

所以，我们要好好珍惜自己眼前的幸福，要好好利用自己的时间过充实的日子呀！

如果现在的生活，是你讨厌的，仔细想想，有那么差吗？
如果现在的生活，是不满意的，仔细想想，能把它变得更好吗？总好过只会停在那里埋怨发呆吧！
如果现在的生活，是你梦寐以求的，那，还能不快乐吗？

感恩我们又平安地过了一天　:)))


所以，我们是真的很幸福呀！
对啊，我们真的很很很幸福呀！

It is a good day. Such a good day! 

I'm gonna make good use of it. 

May all of us be well and happy throughout the day! 

Easter

Todayyyy

Handed in the dissertation draft, such a great relief!

The last day of the lecture before Easter hol~~

hehehe.

On36 again! lalalalala!

Tomorrow gonna try the 50m swimming pool in STV!

Gonna go to Dublin this weekend!

Lovefilm's loads of movies are coming to the doorstep!

It's so good to enjoy the sun!

Finally can rest.

Arrrrhhhhhhhh :D

On call 的启发

Tonight after a long day of work, finally I can sit down and happily have my dinner and watch the HK drama~~

I have seen the ending. But that doesn't stop me from watching a drama as long as I think it is worth watching.

On call 是一个富有教育意义的连续集。虽然这部剧的节奏会因为主角之间的对话拉长而变得比较缓慢，我却喜欢聆听他们谈话中所带出的人生道理。这些道理看似简单，却可能要穷一生的经验才能了悟。

在医院，会每天看尽了生老病死。
在长远以来人类的延续中，人生所要面对身体的病痛，不尽其数。所以，人类的发明中，才会一直不断地有 new moleculer mechanisms, new drug targets, new drug discovery. 只可惜的是，有许多的病，至今依然无法找到一个能完全治好的药物治疗，只能拖延或控制病情。人类，始终还是要面对无法掌控又充满未知数的命运。

可是，就因为有苦，我们才会不忍心看见身边的人或是病人受苦。因为有病死，我们才会更懂得去珍惜和享受简单的快乐。因为不忍心别人受苦，我们才会愿意奉献自己，为别人拔苦。

能当一位医生是很伟大的。一个真正为病人着想的医生，是更令人钦佩。
我常觉得，能够在自己的志向中，学习技巧，来帮助完成为人服务的使命的人，是很有福报的。因为工作不仅仅是糊口活命，工作就是兴趣与梦想，工作就已经是生命的一部分。啊！做自己喜欢做，又能利益大众的事，自利利他，没有一分一秒是被浪费，是多么幸福的一件事。

其实，每个人都有自己的专长，只要能善用自己的强项，用心为社会而贡献，那无论是什么职业，无论是扮演什么角色，只要尽心去做，也一样能成为伟大的人。

选择

   可能有时我们顾虑太多
魁 太多决定需要我们去选择
网 担心会犯错 难免会受挫
ｉ 幸好一路上有你陪我

又是到了要选科的时候了。这个时候，就会懊恼自己要选择什么。

有朋友说好烦啊，为什么选择那么多？如果少一点就不用头痛了。

为什么学校不要选好好给我们？

可以看见现在的学生的决策能力和对自己兴趣的了解的程度到哪里。

可是，当这样的情况发生的时候，不用说我们又会埋怨了：

为什么学校给我比较难的，给我的朋友比较容易的？

给全部人学一样的了， 就说：

为什么学校不给我们自由选的？别的学校都可以选自己喜欢什么？

讲来讲去，就是无论什么情况我们都可以好好投诉一番了，

到底什么时候我们才会感到满意呢？

所以，我不敢埋怨选择多，有选择本来就很好了，再埋怨就真的是太欠扁了。

问题就在于，我们都不知道自己真正想要的是什么。又或是说，我们什么都想要。

选的科，要好读的，最好COURSEWORK的分数高，不用太多考试的评分；可是这样平时就会很忙，做比别人多一倍的功课，也不容易；只看考试分数的，平时比较轻松，可是考试时期却害怕应付不来，太多东西要读了；一般一般的，又没什么兴趣；有兴趣的科，有可能太有挑战性，怕考试太难；然后，又看看别人选什么，senior 说什么。东说这，西说那。

然后就这样被摇来摇去，不知怎么办好。到最后我只想要最容易读，最容易拿分又有兴趣的一科，怎么办？？？？？？


有没有一科，最容易的，没有难的coursework，时间不会太长，或者最好老师完全不管你在做什么，考试最好是mcq，还有老师给埋答案你的？最好不用考试tiam？  

真的有这么“容易”的一科的存在吗？ 

为什么我们不问问自己，

为什么你那么贪心？

为什么你不知道自己喜欢什么？

为什么那么害怕考试，或因为害怕困难，而不选自己喜欢的？ 

看功课，看考试，看难度，看未来，看老师，看朋友，怎么却忘了看看最重要的 -- 自己的那颗心，听听它怎么说？无论是再好或再坏的科目，只要是“心”甘情愿的，我们就不会吃后悔的药。

所以说：

“ 可能有时我们顾虑太多

魁 太多决定需要我们去选择
网 担心会犯错 难免会受挫”

这就是最大的问题。这，也是身为学生的我常犯的。这，是我该反省的。

也许，我们真的应该抛开所有的顾虑，问问自己，

如果世上没有人再看你，你也没有人好参考，

如果考试不是障碍，

大学，一生只有一次。

你，最想学习的是什么？

你，最想体验的是什么？

你，最想做的，是什么？

They are so sweet

Have been eating really lots of chocolates recently.

There's one given by a friend from Switzerland last week during the meditation class. We sort of asked him to bring some nice Swiss chocolates back before christmas and there he was, bringing a full bag of chocolates. He gave I and Yean one bar of chocolate each, and intended to give more, and of natural response we said no thanks as we were already very happy with a bar of chocolate. He kept on persuading us to take more and eventually, he stared at us with disbelief saying, "Chocolates are soo nice, how could you reject the chocolates......" Haha! Now I can see the cultural difference. I guess he thought that we would just happily accept what he gave us but we were too used to get what's enough and "No, thank you" for those more than that!

And then Jess was being a Chocolate Santa today too! She gave such cute little Lindors to us and they are really nice!

Sweet. So sweet. Have to control my sugar consumption and eat them bits by bits.
As a future pharmacist, perhaps I should talk more about Five a day.....( which our house really aim to achieve that!)

So what's five a day? It's NHS programme of encouraging people to have at least five portions of vegetables or fruits in a day. A healthy way of eating towards a healthy life. http://www.nhs.uk/Livewell/5ADAY/Pages/Portionsizes.aspx

Five a day can be easily achievable but it can also be so difficult some times especially when I seldom cook! Veges or fruits that I usually have to get one portion of five are:
a medium apple
a medium banana
broccoli
carrots
..... ( the list is  not exhaustive)

Check this link out! I really like the simple presentation of how to get five a day easily:
http://www.nhs.uk/Livewell/5ADAY/Documents/Downloads/Poster[1].pdf

And wow! As I am searching for five a day, I just realise that I can easily get a portion from only 3 heaped tablespoons of carrots! Great I always have more than that :D

http://www.nhs.uk/Livewell/5ADAY/Documents/Downloads/5ADAY_portion_guide.pdf

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Am being a little bit too obsessed with bags recently. The one that I usually have has holes and cracks everywhere. Its lifespan gonna end soon. And the good news it, I..just Won an Auction! (which I can't believe myself did it too!) Won a bag with just less than 10 pounds. I created another victorious history in life by winning an auction. Hahaha...

Hi, how can I help? =D

Have just watched a video recommended by our lecturer about medicines reconciliation and found it really nice and educational. It tells the basis of a good medicine reconciliation process.

To convey our knowledge of medicines to the patients up to their level of understanding, as part of the role of a hospital pharmacist, requires clear and effective communication skills which I should acquire in order to become a professional pharmacist.

It somehow relight the sparks of passion in my heart. I am on my way to becoming a pharmacist!

新年快乐

新的一年又来到啦！糟了，看来我已经老到了一个年纪可以用得上一个“又”字了耶！新年来咯~~新年来咯~~ 2012啊今年是！

又惊又讶的是今年是龙年耶，龙年！重大的意义！
-- 上一次我庆祝龙年的时候是11年前
-- 这时我第二次庆祝龙年
-- i.e. 明年是蛇年了， i.e.，我快要24了！！！

24，theoretical 上来说，我已经过了五分之一的人生 （若有福到100岁，which is...thin chance)
24，人人都说，（至少以前我是这么被灌输的），20 至30 是人生最黄金的时刻
24，我曾经幻想说，在一个如剑桥般古老又宏伟的大学生活，在一个橙黄的下午，在宿舍里看书，从窗口望出去，是一片青葱翠绿的草原，草原上同学们活泼蹦跳地在踢球。。啊！
24，我曾经想象那时的我，是如此的成熟又有智慧，稳重且文雅，开心地过生活，清楚知道自己想要做什么。我，已经是个大人，能够独当一面，不再是个小孩子了。。。阿！

梦想和现实怎么差距那么远哪。。。哈哈哈。。。

我觉得现在的自己还不是个ADULT呢，虽然外壳已低档不住岁月的痕迹，内心却还是一个乳臭未干的半成年，有时做一位大人做的事，心里还是会怕怕，心想。。有爸爸妈咪就好啦！当然，这过程中，总是会有成长，也许我学会能当一位成年人应有的生活技巧（kemahiran hidup），却没有当成人的心态与心理准备。

想当年，在车子里开心的哼着，“我不想我不想不想长大。。” 因为觉得大人有事后好闷，好古板，又爱面子。

另一方面，内心对自己的期望，却是一位成熟有智慧的模范影子。

我在过程中细细地在品尝着这美丽的矛盾。


新的一年，新的期望！其实每个人无论是谁，内心都有强烈的希望，想要未来过得更好，更开心，生活更完善。所以我们都常常籍新的一年，新的学期，新的东西，去给予自己正面的力量，去改变自己目前不满意的，以趋向自己内心向往的渴求。平时没有力量去改变，去做的，都可以在这时候，为自己click一个“RESTART”，或是“RECHARGE” button，摒弃不好的，培养好的。感觉上，这就像要从轮回中解脱出来一样，不再一成不变，不再蹉跎下去。人生就像玩游戏，如果不满意这一场，那就来新的一场吧！所以，你准备好重新开始了吗？


2012 年的新年，没有怎么特别庆祝。但是，真的很幸福很感恩，在这里认识了一班如此贴心的朋友。他们的布施功德，是令人赞叹的。我的朋友还说，我们大家要在2020年相会，然后我们大家就在热烈讨论着谁会是带着一萝萝孩子出席聚会的那一个。等一下 - - 2020年？我们那时三十岁了？！ @o@

2012 年啊！不断地提醒自己，已经两张了，不幸运的话，也许电影已看到了中场。 如果能够活到四十多岁的时候，我们就要开始啃我们曾经读过的药物。人越老，要吃的药就会逐渐增加，即使没有疾病！噢美国。。。

但念无常，慎勿放逸，是普贤菩萨的警众偈，提醒我们人生无常，不要迷失在玩乐之中啊！要好好想想，我们活着是为了什么？生命的意义到底是什么？

这一路走来，我，也许是迷迷糊糊地度过，却无法忽略内心深处那股强烈的渴望，也许，那是因为我的不安。难道我的人生，就只有这样吗？生活如此短暂，到底我想用我的生命去做什么？如果你非常清楚这一点，那么恭喜你，真的太好了。我，像一膄小船漂泊在漂浮不定的大海中，为这生命的疑情寻寻觅觅那未知的答案。总有一天，我会清楚自己航海的意义。

新的一年，新的一天，重新出发，愿我们每天都活得开心，健康，自在！Huat arrrr~~