值得

这个假期，我可以肯定地说，
我过得前所未有的充实。
还记得在回家的飞机旅程中，
那长达十六个小时的时间，是漫长而无边的等待。
告诉自己说，一定要让我生命中被花费的这一天
牺牲得有它的价值。
现在，用那只剩四分之一的假期来证明，
这一次的归来，是值得的。

值得
不是因为我看了多少部戏，逛了多少次街；
而是在于，了了心愿
自己真正有用心去陪伴和孝养父母
有用心去陪年老的公公婆婆
有用心去维持朋友之间的关系
用心去度过每一天
虽然陪伴的时间不多
自己所尽的责任很少
但是，依然给予自己一丝丝的满足。
在有限的因缘和无常底下，没有后悔。

更值得的是
自己有多出来的时间
去用心深思自己的生命应该承担的责任。
一次次的法喜，巩固了内心的信愿。
善知识的指引，也让前路越来越清晰。
因为母亲的一句话，让我以为，明年不能归来了，
而深深地在我心里种下了这话：
“不能等。”
的确，怎么可以以为生命漫漫无边
而在迷乐，安适中迷失了自己，
蹉跎了岁月呢？
不能等，直下承担吧！
未了的心愿快去完成！

自己不懂的还有很多，
自己要学习和克服的还很漫长，
只求自己尽好当下的本分， 活出生命的价值！
秉持大师的精神，
“难行能行，难忍能忍”
现在是，以后也是。
不管到哪里，人可以迷路，心不可迷路。
真的值得！因为，我的生命值得。

幸福

我很久很久没有去公公婆婆家了
今天到来
公公硬硬硬硬要请我吃炒饭
炒饭不多他们一直推给我吃
然后我又推回给他们吃
吃饱后想买cendol
婆婆就是不收买cendol的钱
一大包cendol可以分三碗来喝
婆婆大呼：“很得（dai)啊~”

吃饱后就和婆婆大剌剌躺在床上看电影
我的肥肉就是在这种情况下产生了
过不久妈咪就回来了！
发觉妈咪真的很爱讲话
她可以“比哩巴啦”和婆婆一口气讲三万粒话！
太厉害了，怎么我都没有学到她呢？
去mamak档喝茶，又吃东西，gosh~
当妈咪和婆婆去买字
我突然有了半个小时和公公独处的时间
咱们站在人来人往的街上
默默等待两位买字的女人
我逗公公说话 他笑笑下，也不多话
可是，那漫长的半个小时，我额外珍惜
因为它就是那独一无二的时刻，无可取代
虽然不做什么，却感恩我能在此刻守在他的身旁陪他等待^_^

下个星期 好友要回学校上课了
而不知不觉 我的暑假也一半过去了
看着她 想着只能顶多再见几次 有些不舍
活在幸福中 犹如水中的鱼
人 常常会不自觉 把幸福当成了理所当然
离别并非是坏事
至少它教会了我  要不断提醒自己
每一个当下 只有这么一次 都是最特别的一次
所以要珍惜 所以要感恩 所以要活得快乐
因为此事，我额外珍惜今天所发生的一切
但无论再怎么珍惜，我却不能从这一刻拿走些什么
至少
缘在时 我呼吸 我感受它的存在
缘灭时 带不走一片云彩
明白了 不执着 我放下
一段因缘灭了 另一段因缘生了
看得透 便不悲哀
我学习 我慢慢学习
如何在万变的世事中 守住内心的幸福与宁静。

A post from Aplusk

That's what I just read from Ashton Kutcher. It's a bit long but it is kind of meaningful. Never know he could write like this. It makes me admire him more. :) The title is called Roller Coaster to Happiness.

"Last week I shared a lesson from my teacher and had an amazing response from you all.  So, I decided I would share my latest lesson.  It’s about controlling you own state of happiness.  My goal in life is to find infinite happiness and this lesson helps me get closer to that every day.  It’s about jumping off of the roller coaster of emotional ups and downs and creating your own new ride.  I hope you enjoy.

Often we think that emotions, feelings, experiences are much more powerful than a thought.  A thought, an idea, is something that is very not tangible, is not something that necessarily we will feel its energy, its power.  We feel much more personal with emotion – an emotion of love or hate, of good or bad – that seems to be a much more real experience, physical experience, meaningful experience, deeper experience.  But thought?  There are many thoughts!  It is remote.  It is in the air.  It is imagination.  It is not something tangible and physical.

However could thoughts be bigger than heart?  Thoughts are bigger than feelings?  Higher more Powerful?  Do we give too much power to feelings and emotions?  

If we desire to be the creators of our own happiness we must exit our reactive existence.  Reactivity is anytime we allow our environment to control our state.  The whole concept of reactivity is being ruled by emotions.  How do we run the show?  

We need to be ruled by consciousness – which will help us effect the right emotions.  Not to say that we shouldn’t have emotions.  But who is running the emotions?  Us or our environment? The thought should run the emotions, and not the emotions run the thoughts.  It is like, who is in charge?  The master of the dog, or the dog?  Who is taking whom for a walk?

In life, unfortunately, the reason people experience the ups and downs is because our emotions—which are our subjective way of seeing reality, and that is usually the typical emotion we are ruled by—are running our life.  As a result, there is no way we will end up being positive, because if we are not injecting consciousness and intention and thoughts into whatever we are doing, it will never work out.  But life will always will make sure to inject the emotion that will lead us astray other wise we can never earn true happiness.  And if we don’t earn it we will never appreciate it.  It’s like someone giving you a jig saw puzzle that’s already put together.  There is no sense of accomplishment.

When we do not have a thought and consciousness and intention before any process, we let emotion to run the show.  So we need to initiate, to pause – even though we may be doing something for somebody we love.  We really want to do something for them.  It is natural, we love it.  We have emotion, we feel.  But we have to stop and pause just one second, “What is my consciousness?”  If it is really to help without agenda, to reveal Happiness in the world, to effect change in their life, to change our own selfish inclination, then we have to inject thought and consciousness into it.  Of course we would love to have that natural positive emotion within us to carry on, but we have to make sure that thought will override it.

Emotion without the consciousness prior to it … is like an airplane without a pilot: sooner or later it will crash.  Initially it will be great – a great ride.  The airplane is pretty high.  That is what happens with emotions.  The only problem is, it does not feel like thoughts are stronger than emotions, and that is what strong consciousness is about.

Imagine you feel terrible today, and certain things happen that you do not like.  But in your thoughts you are saying, “I know it is an opportunity, I know it is for the best,” but nevertheless, you do feel bad.  It is a major conflict: Emotions versus your thoughts, your consciousness.  What do you do about it?  “I do not want to lie to myself; I really feel bad.”  And that is the test.  Are you going to allow your feelings to control your consciousness and believe it is a negative experience … or are you going to decide, “One second, I am not in denial – my feelings I do feel bad, but I have the certainty and the consciousness that it is for the good, and I will create good out of it, and I will transform that situation to the good.”  

If we hold on to that thought in spite of the feeling that is pulling us down and pulling our thoughts down and awakening doubts of “Is it really going to be good?” … if we do not let it happen, then sooner or later the emotion will rise, as well.  The good feeling will come, as well.  And that is true accomplishment.

When we are able through thoughts – because we believe thoughts are a much stronger power, to transform feelings, then that is an indication of transformation.  We will feel great because we think great.  "