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新年快乐

2012-01-24T03:05:00.000-08:00

新的一年又来到啦！糟了，看来我已经老到了一个年纪可以用得上一个“又”字了耶！新年来咯~~新年来咯~~ 2012啊今年是！

又惊又讶的是今年是龙年耶，龙年！重大的意义！
-- 上一次我庆祝龙年的时候是11年前
-- 这时我第二次庆祝龙年
-- i.e. 明年是蛇年了， i.e.，我快要24了！！！

24，theoretical 上来说，我已经过了五分之一的人生（若有福到100岁，which is...thin chance)
24，人人都说，（至少以前我是这么被灌输的），20 至30 是人生最黄金的时刻
24，我曾经幻想说，在一个如剑桥般古老又宏伟的大学生活，在一个橙黄的下午，在宿舍里看书，从窗口望出去，是一片青葱翠绿的草原，草原上同学们活泼蹦跳地在踢球。。啊！
24，我曾经想象那时的我，是如此的成熟又有智慧，稳重且文雅，开心地过生活，清楚知道自己想要做什么。我，已经是个大人，能够独当一面，不再是个小孩子了。。。阿！

梦想和现实怎么差距那么远哪。。。哈哈哈。。。

我觉得现在的自己还不是个ADULT呢，虽然外壳已低档不住岁月的痕迹，内心却还是一个乳臭未干的半成年，有时做一位大人做的事，心里还是会怕怕，心想。。有爸爸妈咪就好啦！当然，这过程中，总是会有成长，也许我学会能当一位成年人应有的生活技巧（kemahiran hidup），却没有当成人的心态与心理准备。

想当年，在车子里开心的哼着，“我不想我不想不想长大。。” 因为觉得大人有事后好闷，好古板，又爱面子。

另一方面，内心对自己的期望，却是一位成熟有智慧的模范影子。

我在过程中细细地在品尝着这美丽的矛盾。

新的一年，新的期望！其实每个人无论是谁，内心都有强烈的希望，想要未来过得更好，更开心，生活更完善。所以我们都常常籍新的一年，新的学期，新的东西，去给予自己正面的力量，去改变自己目前不满意的，以趋向自己内心向往的渴求。平时没有力量去改变，去做的，都可以在这时候，为自己click一个“RESTART”，或是“RECHARGE” button，摒弃不好的，培养好的。感觉上，这就像要从轮回中解脱出来一样，不再一成不变，不再蹉跎下去。人生就像玩游戏，如果不满意这一场，那就来新的一场吧！所以，你准备好重新开始了吗？

2012 年的新年，没有怎么特别庆祝。但是，真的很幸福很感恩，在这里认识了一班如此贴心的朋友。他们的布施功德，是令人赞叹的。我的朋友还说，我们大家要在2020年相会，然后我们大家就在热烈讨论着谁会是带着一萝萝孩子出席聚会的那一个。等一下 - - 2020年？我们那时三十岁了？！ @o@

2012 年啊！不断地提醒自己，已经两张了，不幸运的话，也许电影已看到了中场。如果能够活到四十多岁的时候，我们就要开始啃我们曾经读过的药物。人越老，要吃的药就会逐渐增加，即使没有疾病！噢美国。。。

但念无常，慎勿放逸，是普贤菩萨的警众偈，提醒我们人生无常，不要迷失在玩乐之中啊！要好好想想，我们活着是为了什么？生命的意义到底是什么？

这一路走来，我，也许是迷迷糊糊地度过，却无法忽略内心深处那股强烈的渴望，也许，那是因为我的不安。难道我的人生，就只有这样吗？生活如此短暂，到底我想用我的生命去做什么？如果你非常清楚这一点，那么恭喜你，真的太好了。我，像一膄小船漂泊在漂浮不定的大海中，为这生命的疑情寻寻觅觅那未知的答案。总有一天，我会清楚自己航海的意义。

新的一年，新的一天，重新出发，愿我们每天都活得开心，健康，自在！Huat arrrr~~

Naughty watch

2011-12-13T10:58:00.000-08:00

Finally... I have found my long lost watch!!

It is a present from my mom before I came to UK.
I started finding it before I went back during the summer and almost threw over the drawers but still could not see it! Then I thought I must have lost it somewhere when I was travelling abroad.

Guess where it has been hiding for 6 months?

...in my bath robe!
* surprise of the day* XD

It's December

2011-12-09T16:28:00.000-08:00

If you have been busying around since the start of the term, stop and look:

All in a silence the winter has come!

Today the temperature plummeted to as low as two,

We no longer be able stand strong with thin layers of clothes,

Now it's the time to take out

our wool knitted tops, coats, gloves and boots,

To keep ourselves warm and snuggy and feeling good!

In the evening I went to the Christmas Market again

which is going to close after this weekend

Bought two packets of Chou Chous, with hazelnuts and almond,

and had German sausages as my dinner

Thanks to my good friend,

To give me a pair of white gloves, such a heartwarming present.

Then we went up the uni to watch Sleeping Beauty Pantomine

A comedy indeed, with lots of laughters and grins.

I looked up and saw the bright round moon in the vast dark sky

It seems just so so close to the earth.

The white moonlight shines on the dark lane,

like a lamp-post showing the way back home.

Here goes my second Friday in December,

which marks of the beginning of winter.

Christmas market

2011-11-25T15:49:00.000-08:00

The Christmas market officially began yesterday!
This year the weather is much warmer, as I remembered I wore quite thick layers of clothes when I was going to the market last year. "The weather was due to plummet" after some heavy fog days in UK, reported by Metro.

So here's a few bits and pieces of the Christmas market:

We actually went to see our friend singing choir at one of the street for the opening of Bath Christmas market. The facial expression of the conductor was amazing and she was just so professional. The members of the choir look like a bunch of children obediently looking at the conductor and singing with the best of their male voices.

Lotsa booths have been set up selling a variety of antique and local things that we don't normally find in other places

Bought the favourite must-eat-nuts from the market - Chou chou!

We're entering the winter of the year now~

2011-11-01T17:38:00.000-07:00

This is such a meaningful picture - the Paradigm!
We are always told and taught by our teachers, parents and society what's should be done and what's not.
What mistakes that we should avoid and learn from the past. But sometimes the reason behind was just forgotten and I just tend to follow it blindly, follow what other people are doing because what most people do will likely be the right thing to do. I'm too lazy to think why.

So, always questions ourselves, why are we doing each thing in our life? Why are we doing it in this way and not that? Do we truly understand why are we following certain tradition?

This reminds me of the Rancho in Three Idiots, who can always come out of the paradigm of the society.

Kalama sutta says, do not believe anything that is written on the paper or told by even our teachers. Ehipassiko, we have to find it out by ourselves. Throw away the laziness of reasoning and searching your own way and don't do it because it is easy or it's something our closest friends do.

The life is ours, we have the total authority on deciding what colours should be painted on it.
" Human is the supreme beings of creating cause and conditions."

2011-10-07T16:02:00.000-07:00

A key chain given by my friend, Cindy. It used to be a key chain on my pencil box for about two years.
The first reaction when I saw it like that was, " Ohh! It's broken!" and a tiny rush of sadness overwhelmed me for a second.
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And then I realised, the key chain was and had always been made of a few threads of strings. It is just coming back to its original form. Then why should I be sad about it?

Recently my friend has given me this little cute angel decoration. I can't tell how subtle my affinity is for it. The angel is holding her heart, as if reminding us to have our hearts with us whenever we are. And when it rings, it gives the crispy glass sound.

Every little thing in life teaches us some lessons.

2011-09-25T04:06:00.000-07:00

Now the things look clearer.
Watch your five senses. Watch your attachment. Watch your anger.
Don't be fooled by it.
Arrr, the leaves are green, sky is grey.
The clouds come and go.

2011-09-24T03:13:00.001-07:00

Here's what I heard from a friend.
When nobody's gonna make a step further,
to make connections or to repair the broken parts,
That's how a friendship dies.
It's easy to follow the happiness that comes,
but it's hard to face sorrow with total calmness,
and not reacting to it with more ego and grief.
Because that would never bring peace.
And a simple solution is to face it, let go of the emotions and move on.
It is the easiest way theoretically yet the hardest way practically.
The conditions will still change again today and tomorrow.
When will we be stopped fooling by an ignorance mind?

2011-09-15T10:19:00.000-07:00

Dear blog,

you already know what I want to say.

: ']

: )

Mooncake festival

2011-09-11T09:41:00.000-07:00

Just have a real great time celebrating the Mooncake festival a day earlier!
When I started to miss lanterns and candles, which seems so far away from a lady of twenties, Ahh, then my nieces and nephews came, bringing along their candles and lanterns!
They are shy but naughty, but they are just so cute and innocent. I can't help but keep playing with them. Oh I feel so young now!
The adults are talking, the teenagers are watching tv, the children are playing with their mom laughing and singing.

Colourful candles in the dark,
Angry-bird featured lanterns hung on the sticks,
The cuties looked at the candles with innocent faces，
The youngsters competed to blow out the lights.
We sang and sang knowing only two of the sentences,
We ate the mooncake and shared out the sweets.
The moon maybe high up in the sky, cannot be seen,
But I can taste the sweetness of the smile on everyone's face.

Happy mid-autumn festival!

Kungfu panda 2

2011-08-22T03:44:00.000-07:00

Have just watched KungFu Panda 2 this afternoon. It is so funny yet touching!

On top of that, I like how some parts of the story relate to the dharma.
The cute cuddly panda had successfully fought the evil peacock by going through the path of facing his unhappy past and letting go of it. He ultimately found his inner peace that rests all the inner struggles and thus gained the power to defeat his enemy.

Shifu: "Po, the day you was chosen as the dragon warrior was the worst day of my life. By far, nothing else came close. It was the worst, most painful, mind destroying, horrible moment...I have ever experienced..."
Panda: "Okay.."
Shifu: "But once I realised the problem was not you, but within me, I found inner peace, and was able to harness the flow of universe."

Postcrossing

2011-08-02T09:47:00.000-07:00

It will never come again. But that's what makes life so sweet.
因我们只能活一次，人生才如此甜美。
-- Emily Dickinson (1830 - 1886)

Each time, it is not entirely different but not exactly the same. It is changing, in a very slow pace, continuously. And this applies to ourselves, our thoughts, and anything around us.

Hence, it is not easy to get to what it is now.
When it is here, we can choose to refuse, but we can also choose to accept it for what it is now.
Isn't it what we are hoping, deep in our heart, for someone that can love and accept us for who we are? =)

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There is always good news and interesting discovery from Sin Chew Jit Poh.
Check this out：http://www.postcrossing.com/

For those postcard and stamp lovers, now it is your golden chance to send your postcard to one of the postcrossing members in other countries. In exchange for that, someone will also send you a postcard but you'll never know who is that person and where is he/she from! So, be prepared for surprises at your doorstep one day you wake up! And then we can officially say " Life is a box of chocolates. You'll never know which one you will get."

I have just registered as a member and my first recipient is a lady from Finland. It is such a good thing to post a smile to someone around the globe so why not do it? You'll receive one from the others too, that's how karma works.

Hope you have a wonderful journey of giving love and sharing knowledge and culture. =)

A sad case

2011-07-25T09:04:00.000-07:00

There is a sad case that I should have told last week.

The day after I and grandma had happily planted the two cactus, I went to grandma's house and realise, oh, the old cactus was gone!

Stunned at the empty pot and not sure what had happened, I quickly went and asked my grandma. She said, " Nei, Lucky and Happy (the two dogs in the house) had eaten it.."

I was really in a disbelief. How would they bite or engulf such a prickly old cactus? @.@

I was about to throw my temper at the dogs but a thought flashed through my mind. It was a story about a monk who has his most favourite pot of flowers broken by his disciple. His disciple was so frightened that he would be scolded when he told his master about this. Surprisingly, the master laughed instead and said, "I planted this flower to appreciate and entertain myself, not to make myself angry!" （我这盆栽是拿来欣赏的，而不是拿来气自己的。”)

Quite true! I planted the cactus as a hobby and I shouldn't have ended it with anger or frustration. After this I have decided not to be angry and accept for what it is. Anyway, the young and lively cactus is still there in the pot!

There are quite some lessons to think about why I should get angry. After years I have come to the thought that the cactus belongs to me, it is mine. The fact is it never belongs to anybody; It is just a plant and I can't stop it from changing or being changed ( damaged, death) And so often the shatter of the things we like put us into frustration and sadness; With a calm heart we can actually observe how deep is our obsession towards the things we like and how thing is constantly changing when the conditions change. When we don't understand this, we often suffer - not from the things but from our wrong perceptions and thoughts.

2011-07-16T20:43:00.000-07:00

我家的小仙人掌宝宝终于要“出嫁”了！

两年前，由于要出国念书，

把她转交给婆婆看护。

在婆婆的悉心照料下，

小仙人掌终于能独当一面,

离开母亲，展开它的扎根之旅！

昨日下午，看见小仙人掌歪斜了一边，还与母体形成直角。知道它快掉了，于是便和婆婆商量把小仙人掌拔掉。过程真的又ganjiong又精彩，我们在它们的连接处小心翼翼地割切与扭转，深怕伤了任何一方，感觉像极了在帮仙人掌“接生”一样！

手术成功！小仙人掌比母体还大耶。
这个仙人掌的品种很独特，它的刺不像一般的那么坚硬刺人，
而上方的刺特别长，长成一撮像是仙人掌的头发一样。
所以我特别爱轻轻地抚摸它。

看着依然犹在的仙人掌，心中竟有莫名的感动。

婆婆在为小仙人掌作另一个家。

时时保持心境的喜乐

才能感受这世界的美好

加油！

2011-07-16T10:41:00.000-07:00

其实从夏天之旅回来后，早已不时阅读一个在面子书局广为流传的故事。故事是是这样的，许多家庭主妇都发现自己家里的厨房太肮脏了，太多的老鼠与大蛇出没，吞袭和破坏妈妈们辛苦买回来的食物，每个厨房的老鼠甚至鼠鼠相护，使到整个地区都民不聊生。于是，她们研究和推出了一瓶强力杀虫剂，并决定告诉邻居们，团结起来对付这些蛇鼠一窝，破坏食物的大坏蛋！可是这些蛇虫鼠蚁已在厨房为非作歹了一段日子，那些可恶的蛇头鼠王甚至以为自己在这个厨房当了王，忘了厨房本该是属于家庭主妇们的！村民原本想要以慈悲的方式请这些老鼠离开，怎么知道这些老鼠非但不听，还派出了蚂蚁兵还攻打人类！

读着这本奈人寻味的故事，故事还有许多版本，还好有作者写实地叙说出精彩的蚂蚁兵与家庭主妇之战。其实很久很久以前，蚂蚁兵本该是保护人类的动物，它们那流氓粗鲁的行为伤害的不只是咬伤了妈妈们的身，还打碎了她们的心。可是我想，好好的一个蚂蚁兵又怎么会这样呢？

身为蚂蚁兵，他们可能根本不知道，他们和主妇们并非敌人。他们只是接获蚁将军的指令，而蚁将军却和老鼠一族狼狈为奸。他们只知道，阿头叫他们要负责镇压整个厨房，于是，他们服从，想尽办法不让主妇们聚在一块。蚂蚁兵也有自己的压力。可是是将军叫他们这么做的，说是为了厨房的安全。而将军说得话总是没错。他们想，只要把场面镇压好了，他们这么做是对的。而老鼠啊，大蛇啊，在对岸说笑，对着天空乱说话。

想到这里，我心中的悲悯超越了该有的愤怒。反之，我是否该为蚂蚁兵的无知和盲从感到悲哀呢？我相信，很多时候它们连自己在这故事中该扮演的角色也不懂。想想，是否该原谅它们的无知与野蛮呢？毕竟它们不曾接触过其他有思想的王国的士兵，只能用自己的方式去完成它们的任务。

在这里，还是得为故事中勇敢无惧的家庭主们鼓掌。送上这首歌给努力奋斗的她们！

为了厨房，为了孩子的未来，主妇们不要放弃！

Harry potter 的故事都告诉我们，正义的哈里波特一定会获胜，而邪恶的Voldemort一定会得到他应有的果报！JK Rowling说得噢，她不会骗小孩子的。
Sirius black 已经去世了，Harry 会为他的义父讨回公道的。

在家庭主妇把老鼠们赶出她们的厨房后，它们就能体会到什么叫“过街老鼠，人人喊打”了。

可是，提醒大家在爱护家园，提防老鼠的同时，也别让情绪过头了。留得青山在，哪怕没柴烧。师父说过，要真正护家，就要客观地观察，自己该扮演的角色。不是为逞英雄，不是为谁不忿，不是一时之气。而是首要在于如何能根本地解决问题。

对，还有许多问题还待解决。

譬如蚂蚁兵的无知。它们也是厨房的一份子啊。
譬如许多不问世事的老人家，家庭主妇，要如何才能提起他们对养鼠为患的醒觉，如何增进他们不惧恶势的信心？要如何让他们揭穿糖果的外衣包含的是毒药，用他们的力量创造哈里坡特的传奇？

故事还未结束，以后的故事会怎样，就在作者们的手中！手中的那支笔！加油！
故事应该会很精彩，但是纯属如JK Rowling作者们天马行空的想象，大家可不要对号入座咯！

She's got talent

2011-07-15T08:13:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOuXGkyrPN4&feature=player_embedded

She's such a young girl. At such a tender age, she had already found her passion and got the courage to come up the stage to tell the world her vision. As an undergraduate I can't help but giving her salute and respect from the bottom of my heart. We shall also thank her mom for not killing her dream.

Everyone's got a passion for something in this world,

which can benefit the society and the living beings on this planet.

Why not pursue something that we are really interested in and make them a reality?

Some haven't got a dream.

Many have ones but did not make it to the stage.

Don't leave it in our long forgotten bedtime stories.

The power is within us.

超有意思的无聊漫画！

2011-07-15T01:24:00.000-07:00

无聊的心情果然与无聊的事情相应，一个不小心按进了这一个网站，这漫画实在是太可爱了，而且读到最后作者还有一篇超有意思的感言噢！原帖自小动物剧场

哈哈哈

其实有聊无聊也真的是人想出来的，那么多事情可以做，哪来的生命去浪费来无聊啊！？还不是因为自己的心太散了。真的要像妙赞法师说的一样，要从勤奋中打发无聊的时间啊。

刚刚我和钢琴说话去了。话说回来，我已有一年的时间没弹琴了，回到家时还真的兴奋地给了我家的钢琴一个抱抱，说我很想她！其实弹钢琴里头还真的有很深的学问的。那些音乐系的学生，不只是要研究曲子，有时候更要了解作曲家本身，还有他作这曲子时的时代背景，内心的情感以及作曲的动机，才能深深的感受到这曲子的意境，才能真正的演绎出这曲子如当年的辉煌！而且对初学者的我来说，要弹一首歌曲，不但是要克服技术上的问题，而最后还必须克服自己心理上的障碍，要相信自己真的能“跨”过曲子的一些困难的部分，才能把曲子最好的一面弹出来。虽然琴艺不佳，可是，总是告诉自己，能弹钢琴，就是幸福的。而且，曲子不因等级低而被轻视，能够好好的练习，正确地演绎，又能乐在其中，才是最重要的。练一曲，弹一曲，懂一曲，乐一曲。

好，讲完废话，我要去收拾房间了！

回家啦！

2011-07-14T22:59:00.000-07:00

终于终于，一年一次，我又回家啦！嘿嘿！不知道为什么，在家在大马时候的我，和在外国活的自己，会是一个浑然不同的感觉。在大马有在大马的感觉，在英国又有在英国时候的感觉，飞回大马的途中，就好像有种更换季节的心情。害到我不禁问问身边的她，这是一件正常的事吗？还好她说，她也是这样的啊，不然我会觉得自己很奇怪。为什么我不能维持同一个自己的感觉啊？可能外在的因缘变了，内在的因缘也自然会随之改变吧！我不知道耶。那么，就让这好奇心自己萌芽吧。虽然回来后我又回到了大马的自己的感觉，可是，又察觉到这熟悉的味和一年前回来的感觉又不全然相同。哈哈。这种东西是很难被形容给别人听的！

这几天来，做了一些回来后最想做的事情！除了吃好吃的啦，有陪妈妈煮了一顿晚餐，跟爸爸妈咪享受天伦之乐，和知己出去逛了逛了街，去看看公公婆婆，带他们去吃东西。。今天，把时间留给自己，哪里都不想去，待在房间的自己，却无法不对自己那矛盾的心情感到好笑！懒惰出去，可是独自个儿在家里（父母都出去工作了）却感到有些无聊。好想有人在午餐时候带我出去走一走，谈谈天，然后回家面壁，哪怕两个小时我也很满足了。哈哈。在发白日梦了吧？

想想看，其实我可以在家做很多事情的，除了上网以外。我只是少了个谈天的伴吧了。不过还好这个时期不只是我一个无业游民待在家噢！哈哈哈！无聊时还可以skype一下她们，不错啦。不好意思，其实不想把这些无聊的话语放上部落格，因为有blog update这个东西，我总觉得浪费大家的时间精神与空间去阅读自己无聊的心情是件对不起读者的事，而且其实写这些东西也是很个人的啦。可是我太懒惰开新的部落格作为我宣泄的管道了，所以在未来这几个月，我会把这里变成超级无聊的部落格。不想看无聊post的朋友们请不要click进来啦，或把这个网址从你的部落格里删除吧！

其实我在家有做点东西啦！我刚刚才折完衣服！转个弯看见家里的laundry basket，前两天才给妈妈clear了，今天又八分满了，有些心疼，妈妈的衣服怎么都洗不完哪！妈咪，辛苦你了！

就让我这无业游民，尽一点绵力，至少不作家里的负担吧！

What defines a home

2011-06-12T04:44:00.001-07:00

Where I can take a shower for as long as I can,
Where I can put on the most comfortable pyjamas I can find in my wardrobe,
Where I can sit in any posture that I want doing nothing of particular importance,
Where I am of no hurry to go to any where or to reach any destination,
Where I can reflect on what I did, untangle my messy thoughts and contemplate on what I came across;

It's not that I don't like travelling,
as travelling makes me realise the bliss of being at home.
And I love both.
Travelling is too tiring without a place to rest or to give a sense of belonging,
And staying in the comfort zone all the time without the courage to find out the unknown gives a life without its liveliness.

It's time to do all the unpacking of stuffs and get prepared for my placement tomorrow. =)

2011-05-30T14:48:00.000-07:00

Nine o'clock at night. And it is still so bright,

This is how the sky looks like,

at this hour during Summer in Somerset.

Two more days to go, and I should throw an official goodbye to my MPharm 2nd year.

Two more years to go. And it seems like I'll leave here forever.

Days by days, weeks by weeks, that's how the time goes away,

it never ticks a second faster or slower

for anyone for any reason.

So, the only thing that we can do to leave no regret is to cherish it, live it, breathe it, enjoy it.

Know what we are doing, and do what we want to do.

And when it passes away, let it go.

Recall them sometimes with a smile on our face

that's how the memories deserves to serve,

not for excessive indulgence and forgot that the time still ticks.

So as now I am doing my revision,

I shall rmb and cherish this moment too!

Cause I'll never know when will I come across some of these knowledge again,

as I am so lazy to flip open my books when I'm free. Hahaha.

All the professors hate a student like me.

Hola! Pharmacy second year once in a life time!

I'm still a second year Pharmacy student for the last two days!

Hehehehehehehehehe =D

星期天

2011-05-22T00:42:00.000-07:00

今天是星期天噢。在大马的时候我应该还在呼呼大睡，躺在床上滚来滚去不肯起床吧。然后妈咪和爸爸就会很生气地唠叨我，都几点了还在睡？！平时妈咪还会很geli地拿她刚洗的衣服贴在我惺忪的脸上，想要把我给凉醒了，不然就袭击我，古叽我直到我的反击为止。还睡？阿爸的绝招就是把我的整个被单拉起来，然我在床上无所遁形，像一只可怜的毛毛虫在还未变成蝴蝶时就被人把整个蛹狠狠地拔出来一样！呜呜。。没那么浪漫啦，还敢赖床？真的没吃过rotan噢。通常看见爸爸包青天的铁脸，我用跑的都跑去厕所刷牙去了!

说也奇怪，离开了父母温暖的怀抱，公主的床垫，在宿舍，在异乡时，反而比任何时候来得更自律了。温暖的床铺对我再也没有过大的吸引力（可能是都比不上家里的双人床吧，可以从东滚到西边去），尤其是考试期间，有时候九点多起床我都觉得好像很迟了也！可能是因为知道没有人可撒娇，依赖，所以就会更警觉，不然太阳晒到屁股都没有人会理我噢。怎么突然间有一种被遗弃的感觉。哈哈。是因为这样子，我更学会了爱自己，珍惜自己啊。

星期六，我通常都是自己在家，悠哉游哉，享受自己独处的时间。吃着早餐看着电视，最怀念的还是小时候七早八早起来看tv2 的美少女战士，或是七龙珠，接着是Disney的和 Cardcaptor Sakura。不然在婆婆家咧，更棒！有Power puff girls, Dexter Lab, 好多等等。感谢小舅，为我婆婆装置了这么棒的astro，还留了cartoon network给我婆婆（我）看！哈哈！现在看本地节目，怎么全部都是打架的卡通片啊！现在的小孩子好不浪漫噢，他们的戏都吸引不到我这个大小孩了。

在外地，因为没有电视节目，没有特别的家庭活动，有时候会掉入每一天都是千篇一律的小圈圈。温习着功课，想起今天是礼拜，于是真的好想看一集Sailormoon, 做一些周末才做的小事提醒着我今天又是星期天咯。哈哈。

无论生活是高是低，是肥是瘦，是平淡还是沧桑，我想到最后，留在我们心中的都会是那些小小的平淡又甜甜的回忆吧。所以不用怕，再大的困难也都会过去的，只有甜美的会留下，就像那抹不去的童年记忆，能让我们一生细细地回味。

“月灵的力量，变身~~”

星期五

2011-05-20T12:01:00.000-07:00

今天，走路到小镇。我的朋友听说我走路去，感到很惊讶！呀呀，原来我在他的心中是好一个懒人噢！
和朋友相伴，一路摇呀摇走到了market，看见market我便有一种说不出的开心涌上心头，就好像一位阿婶看见便宜的菜那么开心一样。接着便和朋友们成群结队（其实也只是我们四个，哈哈）到starbucks 去喝打折的frappucino，第一次order这饮品的我竟然还gongtutu地叫了一个奇怪的口味组合：mocha加豆奶加peppermint cream和whipped cream，which is really 有点怪，但是mocha喝起来还真的很不错噢！难怪我的小小一杯比其他人贵那30 几p，是因为我叫太多东西了。最后还有到Sainsbury去买点东西，最开心还是能够搭上巴士直接到家。果然，我真的是很懒惰，哈哈。

回到家，便悠哉游哉地坐下，突然很有心情地去阅读艾林姐在面子书的文章。啊，看了心情更加愉悦。看她的文章，能够直接感受到她那说不出的潇洒和气质。看她的文章，总是提醒着我，每一个当下，要细细地去体会，去品尝。我相信，总有一天，我会体会我心中真正想要的旅行。一个自由，快乐，没有拘束的旅行。这个体验不是不存在，只是我还没有体会到。也许再我的心灵成长一点点，我才能明了。我这么相信着。我的窗口看不见美丽的日落，可是日落依旧是美丽的。看日落，看见橙黄的余光，总有一种很写意的感觉。

啊，虽然考试在即，但是这一出门，身与心都得到了放松，感觉自己是活着的，是多么的幸福啊！

不知道大家有没有这样问过自己呢？如果你做着某件你认为对你很重要的事，可是，在做的当儿，你不开心，或者说，你并没有真正地快乐，那为什么你还要去做呢？我问自己，如果我为了考试而读书，因为时间紧迫，我读得不开心；考试时，我考得不开心；考完试后，我感到心灵很空，虽然轻松了，我也没有真正地感到快乐。在为目标奋斗的过程和达到目标的时候，我并没有真正地感到快乐，那，为什么我还要去做呢？考试考得好，最多也是个自了汉，自己感到得意，但是这种快乐，是很短的，就像微风吹过树枝摇摆一样。课本上的知识，倘若我真的能运用在生活上，利自利人，那么我这么辛苦，都是值得的。所以，当我发现自己不快乐，是自己的心态上出了问题。当然，书，还是要读，既然要读，那么就开开心心地踏上探索的旅程吧！不然，如果不快乐，为什么还要去做呢？=）

Mrs and Mr.

2011-05-09T03:16:00.000-07:00

Today is Roger Hargreaves birthday! Eh emm, actually I also don't know who he is until google home page told me that it is his birthday. haha. According to google, he is a British author and illustrator for children's book. Accidentally came across all his little cute pictures and can't help it'ssss really cute!

Being Mr. Lazy can be really comfy but beaware of the disasters coming!

194!! haha

Hope that we are as strong as him and as wise as her when dealing with stress

Miss brainy I am - always thinks too much!

he likes to visit me whenever i am revising...

I am shy. Yes. Shy. haha.

oh poor Chi chin and maria, our friend who sneeze non stop whenever they are in our house!

Life is not a life without them definitely!

good luck~

Holiday, it's holiday

2011-04-30T06:12:00.000-07:00

It has been a week of holiday and two weeks left to the exams.
Now I can feel the stress, although I am not willing to admit this. Although I looked as if I am so calm reading my notes, I can sometimes feel a racing heart and become restless after sitting and studying for few minutes. Gone through some self diagnosis (well am actually studying about anxiety and axiolytics) now I know these are all the symptoms of Anxiety! Oh gosh~ I am not as non-stressful as I think of myself is.

To kill the time with two stones, a bit of revision plus blogging:

- Cortex: negative cognition
As I was revising, the whispers of my heart actually constantly asking me to remember everything on the notes! There's not much time left!
- Amygdala: Fear perception
Sensory input goes to amygdala. At this moment, my amygdala must be saying "2 WEEks left~~~!!! You may not be able to finish your revision!!!!"
- Hippocampus: Memory
hippocampus will try to remind be of all the bad experience or trauma that I have that make me anxious. Oh that must be those stressful moments when I have to chuck everything into my brain within like say? 24 hours? And this is of course not a pleasant moment to enjoy.

And so, amygdala when percept the input as fear will then affect the diffuse system in my brain. The serotonin level is lowered, which means my happiness is diminishing now! And it activates my HPA and sympathetic overdrive, making me alert and prepare to fight! (fight or flight- Can I choose flight instead?)

- Basal ganglia and cerebellum: Movement
So there are different ways of dealing with stress. One of them is behavioural avoidance. I suppose that's the reason why everytime when we are revising, we have the tendency to click, on facebook, blogger..as a means of avoiding the stress on my study table. And hence exercising may help destress too!

When i am getting more and more stressful as i study along:
Heart, could be felt, pumping a bit quicker
Mind, restlessness, keeps on wandering; or too concentrated
Mood, irritable; Wants to be quick, quick and quick!
And I can even feel that my shoulders become very stiff

I will try to pull myself back a little while, preventing those subsconsious perception and thoughts creating more stress. And relaxing my back and body is quite an efficient way to destress.

Sometimes our brain needs a bit of reminder.
Hey! No matter how busy we are, we are actually in a holiday!
Studying is suppose to be enjoyable as I know more about how our body is functioning.
Don't think too much, just do it. Revise it. Normally it is the thinnking that creates the fear. And most of all ( the most effective anecdote) Studying is not about how well you remember for the exam, if you treat gaining knowledge as a way to help people in the future, you will not be bogged down by the exam ( thinking only about your ownself creates stress).

Really, it is holiday now, and studying should be fun! And I don't care about the marks! *pretending* Haha. Happy studying!

Simple

2011-04-25T08:17:00.000-07:00

Today I have met someone who is really simple. I don't know him much, but then I started like a police interrogating him with lotsa questions. A lot of questions asking about his latar belakang from top to toe, from in to out. hehehe..

And from what he said and answer,
he is really a simple guy.
I can hardly imagine how a simple person looks like.
And now there is this very simply guy in front of me.
He is just, that. And he is really happy for that.
I nearly forgot the feeling of being simple.
And I wish to be as simple as him.
Sometimes I just think too much,
And now I realised
sometimes I just get too attached matters that I am not even noticed of.
And I want it not to be changed. I always want it to be in that way.
In the end, the suffering comes not from the changing situations,
but the mind that get too attached to it and doesnt want any changes.

It's time for growth. Purify the mind and let go of the attachment.
And let myself come back and sort it out.
Simple.

2011-04-07T17:17:00.000-07:00

这世界，很复杂，或许充满着形形色色各种各类的人；

自己需要的，别人未必需要。

别人期盼的，自己未必能够办得到。

这是一个成长的过程

但是，很高兴的是，

在遇到挫折时，有一群知心的朋友

给与安慰，给予欢笑。

希望在这过程中

坚守稚心

增长善心

散播爱心

开开心心地好好走下去。＝）

羽球，巧克力，温馨的越南小食

2011-03-29T15:57:00.001-07:00

今天只有一堂课噢
上完课后便和朋友们去打羽球
有个外国朋友好厉害哟，
她在短短的两个小时内学会了如何开球和接球
而且还算是无事自通噢！
然后咱们到报纸摊子去买40p的Divine巧克力~~
我一口气买了四份报纸！
grab了两个white 和两个dark chocolate *hehe!*
路上经过图书馆
立刻被parade上摆booth的越南学会给吸引了过去
因为他们的桌子上摆了好多小食！
和一位越南朋友打了招呼
也有许多越南的学生向我们介绍他们的食物
和我们索取资料和拍照等
亲切的越南学生
散发出一种很纯朴，很友善的感觉。
他们的小食有：sticky rice

springroll

springroll真的好好吃哦！有三中口味
jes还连续吃了人家五个
我吃了三个
嘿嘿，难怪有几个负责的学生
开始盯着我们看了！
接着到spain的摊子去，
品尝了他们的tortilla de patata 还有一种饼干之类的东西。
好吃，好吃！就这样这些食物就变成我的午餐了。嘿嘿。
才发现原来今天是咱们大学的Many festivals on hill.
是推广不同文化的活动之一。

能够认识别人的文化也是一件幸福的事。

英国的母亲节

2011-03-24T17:43:00.000-07:00

真的好巧噢
下个星期是妈咪的生日
也恰恰是英国的母亲节!
走进卡片店屋里
几乎都摆满了母亲节的卡片
要买个写着happy birthday mom的还真的不容易耶！

买了一张大大的卡

而左思右想的礼物
从实体的枕头化为一片爱心
送去给远方的他们
愿大家平安，喜悦~

今天，把这大大的卡寄出去了
静悄悄地等待
她收到生日卡时的惊奇与喜悦！
哇哈哈。。

待我回来后，咱们买个oven，
亲手弄个蛋糕给您吃，好吗？:)

2011-03-05T02:04:00.000-08:00

人人都把迎春花儿爱
无忧无虑乐自在
年华似水容易过呀
切莫再延挨
莫延挨呀莫延挨呀时光不等待~

Sounds so true. Stop wandering. Stop procastinating. Do important things first.

Wonderful evening

2011-02-28T14:32:00.000-08:00

Just have a really wonderful evening by listening to Ajahn's Brahm's talk with Yean. Just like any other talks by this great monk, it is full of inspirational quotes and hilarious jokes. And most importantly the Dhamma is really something related to how we are now: Being a Buddhist in a country where people may not know what religion it is and how should we behold ourselves and other non Buddhist friends and live harmoniously with one another.

Sometimes, we have to be innovative too!

" Whatever you expect it to be, it will always be something different."

"Doing a thing is easy, thinking is hard."

So, just do it! I shouldn't have keep thinking about doing revision but I should do it instead! Well, okay yes! Haha. There I go! :)

2011-02-22T15:36:00.000-08:00

It's kind of amusing to look back the interaction between I and a friend by clicking "See friendship"in the facebook.
As I scrolled down, I realised that I kind of forgot around 60% what that post meant or what situation it was that make us commenting on it.
It is also an indicator of how a friendship grows, in the facebook.

I am actually searching for a piece of article written by an Ajahn which I could not remember his name. I never saw him neither. I was tagged on the article and read it months ago, but I didn't really make a note of it because I thought that it will just be easy to find it in facebook when I want to read it again. But after just a few months, now it is nowhere to be found, because there isn't an option to trace back all the links posted in facebook. The words from the article occasionally emerge from my mind but there is no way I can find back the complete version now. I learned my lesson for not cherishing such a nice article and make my effort to keep it.

So, is there is any article that you may come across somewhere, not written by you nor your close friends, if you appreciate it, remember to save it somewhere in your laptop. It is worth spending a few minutes doing it for a lifetime appreciation of the piece of work at different stages of life. =)

Interesting neurotransmitters

2011-02-18T15:53:00.000-08:00

I can't write about love no more
I should be feeling sad
Now I know it wasn't you
Who drove me mad

It was that chemical stuff in my head

Oh lalalalalalalalala
Phenylethylamine
Can't get enough
Oh oh lalalalalala l'amour

Noradrenaline
Je comprends ~~

It makes me awake to have such an interesting lecture about amine neurotransmitters at 4pm when I am supposed to be half dead and it starts with this lyrics!

Got to know some trivias that might interest the Science students...

Noradrenaline (NA) is the love chemical!
It is said that feeling of being in love or in a crush is like having a NA rush in your body. Increasing NA in our brain gives us arousal and elevates our mood whereas depletion of it may be involved in depression. Sad to say, we are not able to increase NA concentration by taking tablets containing its precursors tyrosine because, the enzyme involved in the synthesis is saturated. So..what to do, you cannot create the feeling of being in love by taking tablets!

Dopamine is the addiction chemical!
DA is involed in the control of attention, emotion and reward pathway. Also, the regulation of DA system in our brain is related to addiction of human beings to cocaine, amphetamine, cigarette and alcohol. It is said that because these drugs abuse may increase DA activity, which is linked to the reward pathway giving us a sense of pleasure. Hmmm, poor people, fooled by our own brain.

5HT (Serotonin) is the happiness chemical!
Serotonin is what gives us the feeling of happiness! High level of serotonin makes us awake and according to my lecture notes, it also makes us eat less and lose weight! On the other hand, low level serotonin gives you sleepiness and sedation and stimulate the feeding centre, which you tend to eat more.
see this! http://www.cartoonistgroup.com/store/add.php?iid=39023#second

And finally
Acetylcholine is the memory chemical!

Hahaha...Our brain is an amazing thing stuffed with all those complex systems of neurotransmitters! Hope there will be more fun coming on. hehehe.

Reward system

2011-02-16T15:04:00.000-08:00

Have been doing some readings about Parkinson's Disease, which is the topic of my PBL presentation in this term. Came across a term about " Reward Pathway" and thus try to wikipedia it to have a glimpse what is it about. It is really interesting to know some trivia facts about how our brain works in the reward system.

"In neuroscience, the reward system is a collection of brain structures which attempts to regulate and control behavior by inducing pleasurable effects.

A psychological reward is a process that reinforces behavior — something that, when offered, causes a behavior to increase in intensity. Reward is an operational concept for describing the positive value an individual ascribes to an object, behavioral act or an internal physical state. Natural rewards include those that are necessary for the survival of species, such as eating, drinking, sex, and fighting. Rewards induce learning, approach behavior and feelings of positive emotions."

And most importantly,

"Rewards are generally considered more effective than punishment in enforcing positive behaviour.^[2]"

This sentence reminds me of what Ajahn Brahm said before which sounds like this, " Forgive yourself of whatever mistakes you did before and set yourself free. You don't learn from your mistakes! You learn most from what that can inspire you most. "

Perhaps that can be quite true! Now looking back our education system, the exam system tend to deduct marks and punish those who make mistakes. Consequently, we as students are really scared to make even a single bit of error, because we are scared of losing marks. It is said that this forms a kind of habit of being afraid and avoiding making mistakes and hence we become less and less creative in our way of thinking. We are somehow trained to do things that we are familiar with, excellently, and we are so afraid of trying new things, exploring unknown stuffs because we are fear of the unknown that increases the possibility of making errors!

Anyway, I digress too much! I just found out that I lost quite some marks in my studies and I was in real grief about it. Now i am not inspired at all to be a better pharmacist from the mistakes i made. They should give me some rewards e.g. sweets, chocolate for realising my error instead of deducting my mark then. Hmph~ :P

Live.Love.Let go.

2011-02-13T14:08:00.000-08:00

I had been seeing this big title on the advertisement board for 3 months during my last summer, on my way to UCSI. And it attracted me so much that I kept on telling dudu that I wanna watch this movie. And I never knew this is not the title of the movie actually. I have totally overlooked the big font of Charlie St Cloud. XD

Finally watched it during dinner today. hehehe. Would rate 3.5 out of 5.

Tmr would be Valentine's Day! Happy Valentine's Day!!! I don't know where the excitement comes from but..it's just sth worth happy-ing...heheh..Last few weeks when we were walking back home, I was on my imagination roller coaster how romantic it can be where Yean became the spoiler of my script! Isk! I said the prince will bring the girl to the candle light dinner. He poured a glass of wine for her. Then Yean said, he accidentally poured on her dress. Ish Ish. spoiler. haha.

And few weeks more it would be Pancake's Day!! There's absolutely no reason not to have pancake on that day.

Too bad Valentine's Day is not a public holiday. That means I gotta stop dreaming and continue printing my notes. Bye sweeties. =)

Welcome the new family member!

2011-02-10T13:33:00.000-08:00

We have a new family member~~~~~

Ta-da!!!

Her name is..not yet think, just call her yong meh meh! And she is from University of Harvard o!
Presented by a senior who just came back from his placement in Harvard.
Oh my, the soft toys are increasing ( Jes has one new toy to abuse )

踮脚的习惯

2011-02-10T13:24:00.000-08:00

今天我的housemates们严重地告诉我that
我有站着踮脚的习惯！
而且，她们还研究到
我在外面时是不会那么失礼的，
而是当我感到非常relax的时候才会不知不觉地把一边的脚踮起来！
还有当我站在楼梯上时
我都会把一只脚放在上一层的楼梯
dudu说很粗鲁窝
可是事实证明也有女子是这样站的
（我们在地铁电梯偷偷看别人的站姿hehe）

然后她们讲我走路也很奇怪耶！
很不好看吗？
可是我觉得还好耶！！而且这么站真的满舒服的
脚板也可以通通风
哈哈哈~~

后来我自己回房反省一下，
发现我在折衣服，停下来时都会这样哦！
而且那时候我的心情是很开心的
ohmy~~ 真的有那么难看吗？
哈哈哈~~
有时真的要别人才看得到自己的习惯！
暂时觉得不怎么样窝
下次我会踮得斯文一点啦！

This is how i like to stand gua!

从心开始

2011-02-08T14:14:00.000-08:00

新的学期开始了，生活渐渐变得有规律。
每一个开始，新的心态，都让我别有一番的冲劲！哈！

今天第一次走到大大的阳台那里，顶着大大的太阳
吃厚厚软软的Braces面包，
瞻望而去是一片绿色的草原和湖水
还有一群在蓝空中回旋的鸟儿
wahseh，真的有那种常常在电视看见的
外国人很悠闲地坐在cafe外面喝着咖啡
要么写写小说，要么看看世界的心情
那种我常常憧憬的感觉终于给我体会到了！哈哈！
虽然我的脸皮曝晒在强烈的紫外线下，
但是天气依然是冷的。再暖点就好了。

因为新的开始，一切的感觉是如此新鲜，
希望自己有一颗不会容易疲惫的心，
每天都是一个新的开始。加油噢！^^

前年的秋天，生涩的我们。

新年要比旧年好。=)

2011-02-03T06:55:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!!!
Now only I am reminded that Chinese New Year also means the coming of Spring!
Last year I read the article below; And Chinese New Year reminds me of the article again.

新年要比舊年好

--佛使比丘文，山人譯

新的心，比新的年好，

也就是：比以前明白更多，智慧更宽广，

让自己能够

超越痛苦、站起来。

新的一年比旧年好，

只要新没有好，也不好。

口说得好，但心不好，有何用？

被鬼笑，值得吗？

更清净、更光明、更安详，

才叫做“新”，向前进，别惺忪愚昧。

更靠近涅盘，别迷失。

若这样：我们才算有真正的“新年”。

The first day of Feb 2011

2011-02-01T17:08:00.000-08:00

Have gone to Sainsbury to buy groceries for Chinese New Year today.
Have an early dinner and the fried chickens that we bought from Co-op were really nice!

The thick soft bread with peanut butter or Red pepper Houmous spread on is sooo delicious. The thick bread particularly reminds me of the roti bakar that I ate in Singapore with Otak otak on it.

Have recently fallen in love with baking. How can I live without a lovely oven? Gonna ask my mom to buy an oven when I get back to Malaysia. haha.

Tmr gonna have little Hovis pancakes and a cup of Hot Nescolate ( Nescafe plus hot chocolate ) as my breakfast. Am looking forward to tmr's night reunion dinner too! Yay!

Good night!

新年，长大了！

2011-01-31T09:03:00.000-08:00

新年要到咯！
一考完试后，大家就开始为我们的家来个大扫除，
并且用有限的材料布置我们的客厅。
可是这一点也没有难倒ah JOO和ah Du噢，
她们甚至想到把巧克力硬币贴在墙壁上！**创意加分** 嘿嘿~~

有Mr Tan的贺年卡，有Fuixian好友千里迢迢送来的卡，有Sinyee妈妈的爱心兔和爱心卡~嘿嘿~

已list下了一连串
新年时要弄得甜品，食物
以及为特地从远方到来的Mancunians &Londonians
新年Steamboat的食材。
这一次，我真的觉得
我们都已经长大了！

以前新年我只管开心地玩，
也觉得新年好麻烦要准备好多年货，
可是今年第一次，
我们就像我们的父母一样，
在想要准备买几只鸡，几瓶汽水给大家喝，
要买什么新年糖果给客人吃，
那里比较便宜，
结果昨天tesco的online delivery 前所未有的贵！
我们成功地破了一百磅的纪录 ~ *恭喜大家*
而且我们过后还要去Sainsbury买一些肉
和到华人店去买一些面。
虽然好像很麻烦，
不过其实我们是乐在其中的！
Ah joo还说拜年时大家都要穿旗袍或红色象征性的衣服！
而且会到朋友家去拜年。呵呵。

可是我最近真的吃很多，
大家如果见到脸肿腿肿的我，
请不要见怪，
我现在是在人生中最肥的时刻了！

新年还有花儿的相伴以及“旺来”~

整屋子都有新年的气息噢！
敞开大门，
欢迎大家在新年齐聚一堂
这将会是一个美好难忘的回忆！

半退休生活

2011-01-31T06:01:00.000-08:00

花了一整个星期的时间，终于把房间收拾干净了！
考试前天天早睡，考试后天天迟睡。
考完试后真的有如释重负的感觉，
每天待在家当个不折不扣的宅女，
过着悠哉悠哉的半退休生活，
竟然更胜过出去逛街购物的兴奋！
生活节奏慢半拍，又睡至日上三竿才起床，
虽然很宅，但是日子过得还不错我~

考试后第一天和第二天晚上都到不同的朋友家吃晚餐，
看了超无厘头的漫画电影Scott Pilgrim：

在考试期间看完了《王子变青蛙》，没想到这部偶像剧194还竟然看了两遍，而我却是第一次在这里看~ Oh no~
第三天看了感人又好笑的《听说》，晚上咱们就到Brasserie Gerard 吃晚餐，还真的蛮好吃喔；过不久又看了另一部彭宇晏主演的《近在咫尺的爱恋》.噢，还有Wanjoo 介绍的Old Miss Diaries, 在youtube 可以找到几个有subtitle的片断，也是超搞笑的耶！然后hor，经wanjoo 介绍，我们才知道原来啊，Jolin 的特务J专辑的歌是一部三部曲的音乐电影，只可惜金载沅在mv中很快就被女特务给杀死了。

现在正在追看：寻秦记！！！对啦，也是一部轰动一时的连续剧，不知道为什么那个时候我就是没有看叻！古天乐真的超搞笑的耶！最好笑莫过于他和古代人有的没的乱搭的对话！哈哈！

在家里太得空了嘛，于是dudu煮了超好喝的雪耳糖水！
她一直说：“你不会想知道我放了多少的糖！”
Ohmy，after 考试，我的stomach变成了无底洞，对食物完全没有抵抗力了！
只要有吃的，好吃的，吃饱了还是会拿来吃！
这是考完试后的症状吗？只要有吃的都会很开心。哈哈。

星期六到了Oxford去游玩。
还好有Andrew的朋友当我们的tour guide，我们又认识多几个新朋友啦！嘿嘿！
去看了HarryPotter 拍电影的地方，感觉那个hall 好小噢！结果到了傍晚，我们便把整个oxford看完了，于是便决定补买多一张票，早点回家！

昨天兴致勃勃，bake了一些chocolate puddings，然后一起看了刘德华饰演狄仁杰的《通天帝国》。加上《寻秦记》的熏陶，让我对中国的历史起了浓厚的兴趣！
P.S.：原来，完璧归赵的背后是有这么精彩的故事的！大家不妨去找找看。

虽然现在英国的天气超级冷，内心却是超级暖。
有一班超级可爱，超级爱笑的朋友，
每天都感觉超幸福的。

2011-01-16T08:31:00.000-08:00

每次遇见如此的大雨就会想起这首歌，以及大马大大粒的雨滴。^^

Desserts

2011-01-12T14:02:00.000-08:00

66 West Avenues has getting too bored of reading books and notes. After dinner everyone has a sudden rush of making desserts.
Look at what we did tonight to destress a bit!

Initially we wanted to cook green bean soup 绿豆糖水, but because of the small volume of water and a lot of sagu we ended up having “绿豆西米露”. Tastes really nice and sweet!!

Beneficial effect: Green beans help reducing edema.
Source: Jessica

Last time we have found the BBC recipe on making Lemon self saucing pudding. This is how it looks like in the website:

It's really easy to make this pudding as long as u have one lemon, concentrated lemon juice and some, typical baking ingredients: Butter, flour, milk, eggs, etc. The hardest part would be, the effort to whip the egg white and beat the mixture. Tiring~

That's our first experimental pudding! Sorry, it's not visually attractive here as the light is dim, but it tastes really really great!!! With the help of two experienced bakers aka Wan Joo and Sin Yee, we often come out with a success! Just like what Jes said, Miracle often happens during baking! (She said so because I couldnt really believe that the beating of butter sugar and lemon zest inititally will end up smooth and pale. )

No wonder this pudding has got many 5 stars reviews from the readers. Worth a try and believe me, it is really tasty! But dont be shocked when you see the final mixture as a very dilute mixture, it is meant to be so. Here is the link:　http://www.bbcgoodfood.com/recipes/5781/lemon-selfsaucing-pudding

Okay I don't dare to count the amount of sugar and nuts that I have ingested today!　＞＜

阳光！

2011-01-05T01:21:00.000-08:00

终于，整整七天后，我在天空中看见了金黄色的光辉，以及淡蓝的天。

在大马的时候，还真的没有体会过这~~么~~长~~的“不见得光”的日子。不是说我讨厌阴天，只是在我们回来bath以后，已有整整一个星期，每天都从未见过阳光：早上起来，没有日出，一整天的天空是灰色的，没有半点的金黄色洒在天上，就连蔚蓝的天空也不见了。然后到了四点左右，没有黄昏，天色一转，就直接变成晚上了！感觉就好像在南北极过着没有白天只有晚上的日子哦！难怪有些人会有“不见阳光忧郁症”，就连我也生出一点闷气来了。因为阳光总是在那里啊，只是云朵厚得足以把它完全遮盖起来。

今天，难得的，金黄色的光辉！正所谓，一日之计在于晨，而且＋寸金难买寸光阴，大家要好好珍惜今天的光阴啊！提起正念好好活着！（其实是跟自己说，别再懒散了，呵呵～～）

*^_^*

A tinge of sunlight~

What we did today 3.1.11

2011-01-03T15:26:00.000-08:00

There we go. It's me and dudu again in 66 West Avenue. We managed to do some masak-masak today and it's not too bad. ( hahahah. We are really lame chefs! ) So just let the pics do part of the talking:

1. Our lunch the French toast

Finally we have decided to make it our own! Hehe. For a first timer, what do you expect then? We purposely went out to Moorland road to get the milk and the cinnamon powder for this!

2. Tiramisu.

It's not the first time we made it, but I rather said I never make it all by myself. ( I was always the one beside playing around when ppl are making it!) So I asked dudu and she's willing to make the cake with me. hehe.

The biscuits is a substitute for sponge fingers which is sold out in Co-op. I shall say it tastes better with Sponge fingers on it.

Taddaaa!!! Not the perfect one indeed, the taste were alright but the rheology..hmmm..can be better. :D
But it is my first cake ley!

3. Dinner

Dudu has an urge to make lemon chicken and there it is. A really delicious one! Thx for the corn flour borrowed from Kenny too. Haha. We are so poor now in 66. The dinner tastes the nicest although we didnt put much effort in it. :P

A perfect dinner with a Korean drama (恶作剧之吻特别版） More expensive rice really taste different from Sainsbury's. But I can't describe how different it is!

Ends here with a song. Quite a nice acapella though!

Have already had in my mind what kind of good food are going into my stomach for tmr. heheheheh.
Good night! :D

2011-01-02T14:43:00.000-08:00

今天，和一位师兄谈天，谈了许久。
每每和他说话，都会有心灵上的启发，也增长了我的信心。
其实啊，人生能有多少个如此的朋友呢？
说的不是无义的话，而是用心去和你交流的朋友。

今天，有一位朋友离开我们家了，因为她要回家咯。
有一些朋友，你感觉到她就是很熟悉，虽然你和她只是认识了三秒钟。
有点夸张啦。哈哈。可那也让我想起了，另一个她，我在认识她的第一晚，就把几乎所有的故事都跟她说了！听起来真的很不可思议！
但是，缘分是真的很奇妙的。

不论是缘深缘浅，都离不开悲欢离合。
也明白，那种不舍得的心情，是不好受的。但是我们生活在这个世界，却不得不一次次地经历这一种难受的感觉。直到我们真的把离合看得彻底的那一天。
师父说的那句话，是如此的深刻。她脸带微笑说：

“今天，大家相聚在一起，嘻嘻哈哈的，真的很欢喜。明天，大家又随着各自的因缘去咯。”

每个人都有自己的道路，各自的因缘要走。可是在此时此刻，我们竟然能够遇见彼此，真的实属难得。趁大家还有缘时，多做些什么吧，别等到大家随各自因缘而去时，空留遗憾。

常常弄丢发夹，便会从这里再取出新的来用。今天我望着它许久，心想：难道我要等到最后一支发夹才学会不弄丢吗？就好像我们的福报，我们不懂自己的存库有多少的资粮。倘若不懂得珍惜，只会取来用，比如，随意浪费食物，浪费水电，任意购买衣物，花钱等，平日却没有好好修福，福报很快会被用完的。

以前持戒清静的僧人，都把自己的日常用品，物尽其用。一个面巾，多么地破烂不堪，只要能够抹脸，就不丢。掉在地上的米饭，只要还能吃来填饱肚子，依然拾起来吃。别人都不明白他们为什么这么清苦，他们只微笑说够用就好。

就好像，如果我一直都好好保管那一支发夹，我就不必常常从这里取出新的。它们就没有那么快被用完，即使我没有钱再买新的。而且我有多的可以借给别人用。^^ 如果没有机会修福报，那么更要懂得惜福。怎么去惜福？用一颗感恩和欢喜的心去接受身边的事物。

有时候，惜福会比享福更有福。

1111

2011-01-01T14:24:00.000-08:00

Wow, today is the 1.1.11 oo!!! But today is not a school term, so I cannot write it on my notes~~
Today is a Saturday, today is the 365th day of 2011! ( Like to make it a whole year countdown! )
Weeeeee..sorry for the post-new-year excitation!
The firework and beautiful lantern were still in my mind. And the broad blue sky that brings up all the most glittering stuffs.
As we renew our calendar, don't forget to renew our heart and way of thinking~ A new year is always a good kickstart to all the new things! It's not always too late to find the courage to become someone better than who you are, if you figure out there's sth you wanna change. :)

Have been asking people around their new year resolutions. While I myself haven't been really have one. Okay..let me think..here it goes!

Be motivated and patient to eradicate my bad habits - Being late, being messy, being unorganised...>< ><
Be a best friend of myself, less criticising and more appreciation for who i am and how i behave..Continue the journey of exploring my own self and the truth of the world.
Be a really good friend to all my good friends, because they deserve the love and understanding in return of what they have given so much to me...
Be happier, truly from the heart. Not that kind of happiness that comes from lust and desire, but the joy of having less hatred and being a better person.
Learn to give wholeheartedly and share with the others. I'm still on my way in doing this.
Stop being antisocial. hahaha..that doesn't mean that I gonna be very socialising all around. I just hope that I can know some very true hearted friends during my university years, and I should open my heart to the others. I have some very good role model to learn from. hehe.
Always have a time of a cup of milo, every day, no matter how crazy the workload is.
Follow his teachings, always. Avoid all evils, do all that are good, purify one's mind.

Okay, that's all I can think now. Ciao~

From Venus

2010-12-29T17:03:00.000-08:00

I am back.
Have lots of things to write about but for now, I'd just say what I did today.
Finally, after the whole summer and 2nd year first term has passed, I bought:　

Tortellini!

Quiche!

These are my fav lunch during last term!

Before the trip to Spain and london Christmas,
I never knew that people will wake up that early and queue up in front of Selfridges during boxing day. And As what i witnessed, 95% of them are Asians.
I never knew a scarf of Tommy hilfiger will cost 35pounds, which is considered quite cheap because it is a half price.
I kind of forgot what Yamame sells.
I dont quite know Aldo actually sell girls' shoes.
And I never know La Senza starts selling guys' stuffs too.

Oh dear. I'm not only not a lady. I am an alien from Venus. Hello the Earth. :)

Touching.

2010-12-13T11:57:00.000-08:00

This is so touching. I felt so humble and small in front of this great hero. Every day we spend hours thinking about ourselves and emotionally suffer from grief, anger and worry due to lots of things that trigger us. That's why we were never really happy regardless how high we are, how much things we possess and how many pleasures we enjoy.

And this guy, he rather spend his time sharing the food he has to people, days and nights, not hoping for any fame or rewards. And he took care of their physical and mental state too. A great Bodhisattva he is! A person's power might be small, but he never underestimate himself. He made full use of his life.

So, let us learn from this great man,

Think less about what we want and what we desire.

Care more about what they need and how they feel.

Fill our heart with love radiating from within,

Discard any ill will and enmity to the others.

Let us not harm anyone in whatever we do.
And try to help whenever we can.

"Rain drops from the blue sky

like the tears that poor cry,

Let us show them all that we care

Show our loving kindness

So their suffers will soon be gone

And livelihood be joyful again.

We care~ so begin share with others

Deep in your heart

True from your heart to care.

We share~ all the joy with loving care

So hold out hands tight

and start to recite the will of Buddha

Sabbe Satta Sukhi Hontu

May all beings in this world happy too

Never gonna let go

The message Buddha told you

Stay in us ever forever.." :)

吓死我了！

2010-12-11T04:33:00.000-08:00

我常常很大头虾，东西整天不知放去哪了。近来，我终于得到我应有的教训了。。。T.T

首先是上个礼拜，我弄丢了我的bus pass和Library card，而且是等到那个人email 我我才知道哦！这是第二次，第一次时我知道我自己在城市里弄丢了，紧张得半死，到处去找，结果幸好有good samaritan检了我的东西，email并还了给我。所以这次我没那么紧张，反正也有人拾到了，可是。。。原来他只见到我的图书馆卡，我的bus pass却不翼而飞了~~ 那两张卡是放在一起的，决不可能掉了出来。我推测是先有人看见了，把library card 拿出来，然后拿走了buspass T。T 可是又能怎么办呢？毕竟都是自己的疏忽~~

不过这还好。因为学期已到了尾声，我还可以买10journey来搭巴士。今天更糟，发现自己的钥匙不见了！！！其实昨天就已发现了，回家时是室友开门，可是因为我前天晚上回家时记得是自己掏钥匙开门进去，所以满肯定自己一定是习惯性地把钥匙放在房间的桌子上。今天要出门时，才记得要找，可是，不在桌子啊！也不在书桌啊！omg~~ 东找西找，再返回laundry basket 里前天穿的衣服！！抽屉！！也可能留在客厅！厨房！（因为回来时可能会去厨房偷吃）都没有！！我近乎绝望，开始想我最近是不是走霉运（难怪人们bek cek 到一种地步会这么想），是不是印堂发黑。。可是又想想自己最近都没有做什么坏事，都try to 行三好，想起佛法说“人为善，福虽未至，祸已远离;人为恶,祸虽未至,福已远离”，就安慰一下自己。找了许久，近乎绝望了，漫无目的地寻找的时后就在我的labcoat的袋子里面听到响亮地钥匙声！真的是柳暗花明又一村啊！

我只知道把东西放去安全的地方，却常常毫无意识地把东西放在一个地方。真的是让我心跳一百的好大的教训啊！从此之后，我真的要下定决心，不要那么粗心大意了，每次做什么，哪怕只是放个钥匙，真的都要sati sati sati 啊！

我那时候一定是这个样子的一百倍！

Yeepie! ^^

2010-12-09T13:34:00.000-08:00

Finished Dispensing practical. Finished patient counselling. It's not that bad and not that stressful actually. But, you know, just tend to get a little bit nervous for the first time. hehe..

and finished Chuck Season one! This is actually a quite funny and thrilling series!

Chuck is sooo nice and kind-hearted, no wonder Sarah falls for him eventually. Mr. Awesome is so awesome, Ellie is so charming, Casey is so cool but kind in his heart also! Thx Andrew for introducing this to us!

Kind of watching The Secret Garden also, until epi 2. Due to the STRONG encouragement of Dudu!!! Dunno why she found it soo funny, it's more or less like any other korean drama actually. In which, you know, the plot isnt really logical, exagerratingly intimate interactions and intense feelings at the first sight..( hehehe) Sorry Yunyi, yr Tamani Island has to wait for a while, I did watch the first 30mins of the first epi really!

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Weather: Sometimes we have a mix of summer and winter: We have really strong sunlight and at the same time ice spikes on trees and grasses. And not forget to mention the freezing temperature. hehe.

One week more and we'll be off to Spain!!! Hopefully everything will be alright and i hope there is no strike going on in the Spain airport..kekeke..Bye~

Pressie

2010-12-03T13:21:00.000-08:00

Christmas pressie from University of Bath.

Self-made aqueous cream BP.

kekeke.

Tmr will be a good good day! ^^

回想

2010-11-30T15:17:00.000-08:00

现在回想起来，上个星期我度过的是人间的地狱。地狱不需要很远，就是那个囚禁我的心灵的地方。为了繁忙的功课，为了庆生，为了申请工作，为了处理旅行的东西，我的心在这些事情中打转，而变得十分疲惫，缺乏睡眠也十分影响平日的心情与表现。当面对问题时，我也察觉到心情也常处于焦虑，烦恼，挫折，后悔，慌张种种负面的情绪当中。缺乏精神，却因为要赶课业上的东西，便拖着疲惫的心灵努力，有时候也没有awareness自己在干什么，只想把事情做好。这莫过于是一个学佛者最不想面对的状况了。

但是，今晚冲凉时突然开窍了。放下自己，从客观的角度来看，每件事情都是成长的过程。现在种种的问题，也会成为多年后忘却的芝麻小事；然后也发现，许多烦恼的产生，都源自于自己在处理事情时是多么的没有智慧。

比如，在抉择时，很多事情往往是无法预测的，我们惟有在当时的所限的因缘底下做出最好的决定。当时决定后，谜底逐渐揭开，可能发现，这个是个错的选择！但是，怎么办呢？是我的问题吗？是选择的问题吗？不，是因为我无法取舍，做了决定以后，无法接受和放下决定的利与弊。因为放不下，没有正知见，所以会产生焦虑，悔不当初的反应。才发现，这就是为什么，许多人都愿意考量，却都不敢下决定。因为害怕承担无法预知的后果，因为要求完美。

不断比较过去与现在，不断衡量得失，所以心不安宁。然后，作为决策者，做了决定后，也害怕别人的不满，所以内心也有压力。总总的烦恼都源自于一颗没有历练的心以及缺乏智慧去处理问题。其实，做了决定后，应以冷静的心去面对，不再衡量对错，应明白及勇于承担后果；面对群众，要知道自己只是因缘之一，既已尽己力，便安抚人心，而也不必再担忧别人对此事的种种看法，也应放下了。

再加上，种种意外的产生更应提醒了我们许多事情的变化都不是我们能够控制的，而挫折感的产生是因为我们仍未从内心去明了“无我”的道理。我们去执著为何事情不如预期那样，所以生气，不满，无奈。所以说，真正要做到随缘，那时谈何容易呀！对于日后更多的未知数，我们若不断地去想，只会更加地愁慌。但是，那时候自有那时候的因缘，我们管的了，担心得着吗?

许多问题，如果用烦恼对峙烦恼, 那将会是个充满负面情绪的无底洞。但是，转个念，从佛法的角度去想，许多事情，也不是那么严重了。从来不是事情太难，而是种种的妄想和执著的心太难了。感恩生命有了佛法的滋润，也愿自己能从中成长，变得更有智慧。

平凡星期五

2010-11-19T17:06:00.000-08:00

大家都知道dudu很久没有update她的blog了，那我就代她更新一下我们昨日做的小事儿吧！
我和她各自和妈妈们谈完天后，便出去城市的邮政局要把坏了的吸尘机寄回去给出产商。下午四时许，天色逐渐灰暗，灿烂的太阳要到大马去咯！

巴士上，我们为了一些小事而有些困扰，最后dudu说了一句：“再看怎样吧，我们这么好人，相信别人也会对我们好的！”搭巴士到城市后，我们轮流扛着笨重的vaccum，走到了巴士站附近的小邮政局。排着队，感觉不对劲，等了没多久，dudu隔壁的女子好心提醒我们说，这儿的邮局是不收邮件的，要寄东西需到图书馆对面的邮局去。我们两个愣了一下，连声说好，心里真的感谢这位女生让我们省下了许多等待的时间。踏出小邮局，dudu跟我说：“你看，我们真的会遇到好人的！” 这句话，印在我的脑海里。我从来是一个现实的人，很少会如此乐观地期望着，面对着事情，可是这一刻，我觉得有一颗善良的心，虽然可能不如期待而感失望，虽然可能会被受伤欺骗，那一刻的良善，是如此地让我感觉到踏实和窝心。

于是，我们又轮流扛着抬着那部机，迎来很多人异样的眼光，走了一段路，终于到了另一个邮政局。有如释重负的那一刻时，才知道答案是我们到了错的邮政局，因为标签上写的是ups不是by royalmail. 问了人，又发现再多几条街可能有收ups包裹的邮局。因为vaccum机很重，路很斜，dudu勇敢地去了，我留在邮局外面等待她去看看是否如此。就这样，和坐在隔壁等着巴士的老婆婆结缘了。她一开始似乎没注意到我的出现，被我吓着了吧。看了看我，她对我慈祥地微笑，便开始和我来聊起天来：“巴士很久还没到hor？” “噢，我不是在等巴士，我等朋友回来，你在等几号？" 她告诉我说，她1973年就住在bath了，那时原本是为了照顾年老的父母，结果他们去世后，她也继续留下来了。我说她很喜欢bath吧。她说是啊，这是一个很美很宁静的城市。当我告诉她我是从大马来，她说她以前在bath royal hospital 工作时有一群大马的学生，他们新年时还会制作龙来玩呢！她告诉我她上个星期刚过了生日，她今年87岁了。我回她说我过两天便会生日，21了。我们笑了起来。她说她小时候去过印度，很喜欢那里。我说不是很热吗？她喜欢。后来dudu打来说，好消息，那个地方有负责ups，可以拿过去了！而同时老婆婆的巴士到了。来不及和她当面挥别，还没告诉她我也好想去印度寻找佛陀的足迹呢。就这样，各自上路了。因为迟到的巴士，21岁遇见了87岁。深刻而温暖。

幸好我有陪dudu去还vaccum，她一开始还自告奋勇说可以一个人拿去！重到半死噢，还是独乐乐不如众乐乐好！^O^ 　完成了正经事后，我们都很兴奋我们踏上没有去过的地方（那个店那里的街）。过后我们去逛逛街，dudu买了保暖睡衣，我买了三双超舒服保暖袜子！哇，现在脚底暖暖的，好舒服！我们还联合吃完一整包smarties，搭车回家后有hsemate煮好的粥等我们开饭！哇，我们好好好幸福哟！然后，我们又看电影了！这已经是这个月第四或五次了吧！After that 我还看见hsemate辛苦为我弄着banana choco cake，真的好好好感动啦！

昨天我们去Bath Christmas light on了！

噢，还有，大家，我明天要和朋友们去看Harry Potter 7 了！谢谢他们请我看戏，我坚持要给但是他们不肯。我想说，有朋友们真的很棒噢！当然还有我的爱人哈利波特～～　哈哈～～

Short and sweet

2010-11-19T07:05:00.000-08:00

Carol: bye bye~ good night~ I love you~
Carol's mom: bye~ I love you toooo~~

First time she replied me like this! XD

The Chant Of Metta- Imee Ooi

2010-11-18T14:24:00.000-08:00

Have been listening to this song for around 2 years. This is a soothing song, but I never searched for the meaning behind the Pali words that Imee Ooi chants in this song. Finally I googled it and found the Pali translation for this Metta chant. Although the whole sutta is long but it is very meaningful actually!!!

In our daily life, we spend so much time thinking about ourselves. But in this chant, every sentence reveals that the happiness coming from wishing the others to be happy and free from danger. If one can chant this sutta with mindfulness, it will be more than a soothing song. It is a meditation with deep loving kindness to the whole universe. And every loving kindness starts from wishing ourselves to be happy. ^_^

Aham avero homi May I be free from enmity and danger abyapajjho homi May I be free from mental suffering anigha homi May I be free from physical suffering sukhi - attanam pariharami May I take care of myself happily Mama matapitu May my parents acariya ca natimitta ca teacher relatives and friends sabrahma - carino ca fellow Dhamma farers avera hontu be free from enmity and danger abyapajjha hontu be free from mental suffering anigha hontu be free from physical suffering sukhi - attanam pariharantu may they take care of themselves happily Imasmim arame sabbe yogino May all meditators in this compound avera hontu be free from enmity and danger abyapajjha hontu be free from mental suffering anigha hontu be free from physical suffering sukhi - attanam pariharantu May they take care of themselves happily Imasmim arame sabbe bhikkhu May all monks in this compound samanera ca novice monks upasaka - upasikaya ca laymen and laywomen disciples avera hontu be free from enmity and danger abyapajjha hontu be free from mental suffering anigha hontu be free from physical suffering sukhi - attanam pariharantu May they take care of themselves happily Amhakam catupaccaya - dayaka May our donors of the four supports: clothing, food, medicine and lodging avera hontu be free from enmity and danger abyapajjha hontu be free from mental suffering anigha hontu be free from physical suffering sukhi - attanam pariharantu May they take care of themselves happily Amhakam arakkha devata May our guardian devas Ismasmim vihare in this monastery Ismasmim avase in this dwelling Ismasmim arame in this compound arakkha devata May the guardian devas avera hontu be free from enmity and danger abyapajjha hontu be free from mental suffering anigha hontu be free from physical suffering sukhi - attanam pariharantu may they take care of themselves happily Sabbe satta May all beings sabbe pana all breathing things sabbe bhutta all creatures sabbe puggala all individuals sabbe attabhava - pariyapanna all personalities (all beings with mind and body) sabbe itthoyo may all females
sabbe purisa all males sabbe ariya all noble ones (saints) sabbe anariya all worldlings (those yet to attain sainthood) sabbe deva all devas (deities) sabbe manussa all humans sabbe vinipatika all those in the four woeful planes avera hontu be free from enmity and dangers abyapajjha hontu be free from mental suffering anigha hontu be free from physical suffering sukhi - attanam pariharantu may they take care of themselves happily Dukkha muccantu May all being be free from suffering Yattha-laddha-sampattito mavigacchantu May whatever they have gained not be lost Kammassaka All beings are owners of their own Kamma (Karma) Purathimaya disaya in the eastern direction pacchimaya disaya in the western direction uttara disaya in the northern direction dakkhinaya disaya in the southern direction purathimaya anudisaya in the southeast direction pacchimaya anudisaya in the northwest direction uttara anudisaya in the northeast direction dakkhinaya anudisaya in the southwest direction hetthimaya disaya in the direction below uparimaya disaya in the direction above Sabbe satta May all beings sabbe pana all breathing things sabbe bhutta all creatures sabbe puggala all individuals (all beings) sabbe attabhava – pariyapanna all personalities (all beings with mind and body) sabbe itthoyo may all females sabbe purisa all males sabbe ariya all noble ones (saints) sabbe anariya (those yet to attain sainthood) sabbe deva all devas (deities) sabbe manussa all humans sabbe vinipatika all those in the 4 woeful planes avera hontu be free from enmity and dangers abyapajjha hontu be free from mental suffering anigha hontu be free from physical suffering sukhi - attanam pariharantu may they take care of themselves happily Dukkha muccantu May all beings be free from suffering Yattha-laddha-sampattito mavigacchantu May whatever they have gained not be lost
Kammassaka All beings are owners of their own kamma (Karma) Uddham yava bhavagga ca As far as the highest plane of existence adho yava aviccito to as far down as the lowest plane samanta cakkavalesu in the entire universe ye satta pathavicara whatever beings that move on earth abyapajjha nivera ca may they are free of mental suffering and enmity nidukkha ca nupaddava and from physical suffering and danger Uddham yava bhavagga ca As far as the highest plane of existence adho yava aviccito to as far down as the lowest plane samanta cakkavalesu in the entire universe ye satta udakecara whatever beings that move on water abyapajjha nivera ca may they are free of mental suffering and enmity nidukkha ca nupaddava and from physical suffering and danger Uddham yava bhavagga ca As far as the highest plane of existence adho yava aviccito to as far down as the lowest plane samanta cakkavalesu in the entire universe ye satta akasecara whatever beings that move in air abyapajjha nivera ca may they are free of mental suffering and enmity nidukkha ca nupaddava and from physical suffering and danger.

Snail!

2010-11-13T15:09:00.000-08:00

I-saw-a-snail-on- my-cloth-in-my-room-when-i-was-folding-my-cloth!!!
I just wore it yesterday! And I put it on my chair. Neither did I took the cloth out nor throw it on the floor.
zhen qi guai! tested the shell with some water, and it hasn't died yet though!

And I put it back to the garden behind.:)

^_^

2010-11-12T17:21:00.000-08:00

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I wish to go to town tomorrow. Not with a purpose, perhaps just wanna go to the library and wandering around the city. Leafs are green, clouds are white, flower smiling wide!

I wish I can do meditation in the morning. It has been a few weeks ago since I last did it.

I wish I can sit down and enjoy some movies, or read some story books, or perhaps dhamma books. Not just non-fictions.

I wish I do not need to rush for anything and don't have to do anything, and always have time for a cup of, any drink? It doesn't matter.

Tomorrow, it will be a great holiday! And it starts from a good sound sleep now! Arhhhhhh~~

2010-11-05T14:31:00.000-07:00

My old Ku Poh got a stroke last week. It just happened all of a sudden. She's just like normal that night, and the next moment she was collapsed on the floor. She'd undergone a brain surgery to remove the blood clot. She's okay now, just discharged from hosp. and is recovering. Right side not that flexible anymore. Although I'm in UK and heard this news from my parents, I can imagine last week was a tiring and emotionally exhausting week for my aunts.

Ku poh is always a cheerful person. Although she's not that mobile in moving ( her feet were not that flexible, due to ageing), she doesnt feel frustrated or depressed facing the signs of aging. Instead, she is a very strong lady. Once, all of us accompany her to walk down the stairs which is quite narrow. For a young man, he can do it in 1 minute. For her, she took around 10 minutes to do that, very slowly and struggling, step after step and the adults can only watch her in case she is falling. And she never said a word about it. We always complain climbing stairs. But never know being able to climb the stairs is a thing to appreciate for. This is what I should learn from her.

Life is impermenant. One day, we will get old. Besides this, as we grew older, we will also soon see our dearest family part from us, one by one. This is the rule of life. There isn't a flower who blooms and never dies. We must have such a mental preparation long before the thing occurs. Otherwise, we will very easily break down when come to matters of life and death. The Buddha said, if we really see through the impermenance in everything, we will try our best to make ourselves and everyone around us happy. Because, we know they are not going to be there forever, so there is no need at all to be in anger or frustration and then have regrets when they are gone.

On this Guy Fawkes' day, let us remind that we are still alive and it is the most wonderful moment we can have on earth. Throw away our sadness, and be refreshing every day. And be grateful that we are alive, as someone else may not have lived today. Living is already a thing worth happy for. :)

T.i.m.e.

2010-11-03T15:35:00.000-07:00

One day when I saw people write that " Time is a relative thing. You'll feel like ages parting from me if I'm someone you miss; Inversely, If i'm not in your heart at all, one year is not very long." This sentence gives a deep strike into my heart.

Time is a relative thing. Perhaps I shall think it again. Why am I always feel like lacking of time? If time is relative to someone, it doesnt really matter whether everyone has 24 hrs as the others have. If it is a relative thing, then why do we count the time? Having more hours doesn't mean that you spend all of them with good quality.

Now somehow I can feel it. I started working on my workshop at 8pm. And I was sort of concentrated in doing it. It was not stressful, but I can feel that I took ages to dig up the information that I need for the workshop. It gives me a feeling that 2 hours have passed. But when I look at my clock, pheww - it is just 9 o'clock! The night is still young. That's how the 'miracles' happen.

And I recalled that last few days ago, I can be so unproductive. I wanted to do an easy workshop but I spend 2 hours on it. I wanted to do lots of tasks but I end up completing none. And quite often, I wanted to do this and that, but I was not psychologically prepared for it - My mind wanders in the wonderland of facebook for sometime, blogger for sometimes and many other places. I kind of spend many times in an undecided position of what I am going to do next.

Does the length of the time shown by the ticking clock is really all the time I have? I am not so sure. I can't help agree with the relativity of time. Perhaps, when you enjoy doing something, when you are totally indulged in doing something, one hour isn't that short. and Many days isn't that long. You can think in both ways. Or perhaps, when you're so concentrated that you forget the time , it slows down :D

So I guess, the best way to do things effectively is, do it when your heart really wanted to. Read when I really want to; Talk when I really want to. We don't need to spend all our time in one part - We are not machines. We'll get into our work more seriously and effectively if we have healthy relationships with people and things surrounding us. Then we'll have less problems to think of and thus we can concentrate in our work. hehe. It is a circle, it's hard to succeed in either part if go to both extremes.

No wonder the chinese idiom goes : 置心一处，无事不办。

酸

2010-11-01T14:12:00.000-07:00

你有没有这一种感觉？
虽然只是小时候的幻想，虽然长大了也知道这是一种盲目的东西，
但是！！
当看见她找到如此登对的男生，
我的心，除了祝福，竟然也是酸酸的~~ T.t

花痴性格又回来了~~

Today!!!

2010-10-27T16:06:00.000-07:00

I didn't do any thing abt study at all ( Apart from printing tmr's lecture ) although I don't have lectures at all today, except for the two hours French class. Wake up at nine. Make pasta for myself and housemates at eleven. Then eat and change and it's time to take bus to skol at around 1250 pm. The most wonderful moment I spend on bus is to have Thich Nhat Hanh book on my hand! Reading it just make me wanna be aware that I am alive now. Sun shines a lot today, and to me it's the summer day! Don't be trapped by the concept of four seasons; We do get Summer weather in Oct. And the exciting part is you never know what season it is until you wake up the next day. :D

Then we have French class. And I and Wan joo ( my hse mate) and Yean actually deal on an agreement on nt teasing each other anymore!!! Although I am so so so used to teasing ppl and make fun out of this, I am kind of glad that I have made one step further - to stop myself from the poisoning habit of saying rumours! I promise, I'll try my best, but if I do speak it out out of awareness, I hope they are not cruel enough to punish me hard! ><

Then at night we watched a movie while waiting for celeb Jackie's birthday. After that we walked to Kenny they all's house and give a huge surprise to Jackie!!!! Kenny and Justin even made a homemade strawberry cake for Jackie and it tastes really great. I mean, for guys who never baked this type of cake and started everything from sketch, this is a thing worth praising of! But they have sifu to teach them though.^^
Jackie said that he knows sth is going on because he saw our friend's shoes in his house! lol~ Anyway, hope that he really enjoy the not-so-surprising celeb and the cake. haha.

Then it's 11 sth as we get back. So I and yean started to prepare tmr's sandwiches to skol. Yean is like a zombie. She just felt so sleepy! I prone to be one soon. Coz it's already 12am. But I just felt so happy for living today and am really grateful for the wonderful stuffs around. Today's passed away, another today's come!!! Embrace! * But first of all must make sure I fully recharge my battery first* Bonne nuit~

Practising the right speech

2010-10-14T15:21:00.000-07:00

Have you ever said something that you'll regret right after saying it out? Have you ever spoken something that shouldn't be said, out of excitement or other emotional influence?

Right, that's what I have done today to one of my friends. Without considering her feelings I just spoke out something in front of the others that she might not be happy of. Although it is not a huge matter, it is a point worth reflected.

Sometimes we'll just say something or do something stupid because we are not fully aware that what are we doing or saying at that very moment. We may be just overwhelmed by our emotions and follow wherever it brings us to. And sometimes, it can be disastrous. In the suttra, Buddha did mention the importance of practising the right speech. It means that :

We practise not to tell anything untrue to the others ( 不妄语 such as rumours) ,
not to say things that are not useful to our lives and the others ( 不绮语e.g. for the mere sake of pleasing people ),
not to speak something bad behind the person or tell different stories in front of two people (不两舌)
And not to say something that will hurt or annoy the others' feeling. (不恶口）

And it is not easy at all to practise that. Every day, I have spoken lots of unskillful words, teasing others by their rumours, etc etc. And that's considered a lot, not yet accounting those that I have spoken when I was unaware of what I spoke. It may not seem to be a bad thing but, when it has become a habit there is a hidden danger in it.

Why should we practise the right speech? The reason is as simple as, we have to bear the consequences of what we have done or spoken. Something that you think is unimportant may be the reverse for the person himself. By not practising the right speech, we may have hurt our dearest friends and family members, annoy people that we are unaware of, say something disastrous that will ruin our or other's reputation, or lost the trust that people put on us. And we definitely won't be happy when any of these happens.

Practising the right speech does not discourage us that we shouldn't be speaking at all. Inversely, by knowing its consequences, we should be more aware of it and try to speak words that will bring harmony and comfort to the others. And that will normally form a positive feedback loop: As we sincerely treating others and speaking something truthful to them, we'll become happier because we don't need to think anything particular just to please others. We do not have to wait until people treat us equally the same way to become happy. And if they do, it is normal because Newton's third law pair of forces do apply in human interactions.

Today's lesson just make me realise how important the right speech is. And to practise the right speech, we need to be fully aware of what we are speaking, who are we speaking to, the content and consequences of saying that out and the suitable time of voicing it out. Without awareness to our speech and action, it is impossible to practise the right speech. And it is so important because a mouth can be used to compliment the others, it can also turn into a sword that hurt others as well as its owner.

Yeah, I should be aware and take good care of my own mouths from now onwards! :)

*Practise the right speech. Say something that will brighten up one's day, truly from our heart.*

Sunny day!

2010-10-11T09:15:00.000-07:00

Sunny Day today~~
My bear bear is basking in the sun^_^ so hot~
Jessica was so excited that today there isnt any cloud in the sky,which is very rare. But i like the clouds because they are always changing! haha.
felt a bit sleepy today. I should sleep earlier tonight. Am seriously a person who cannot live without eight hours' sleep.

Ytd I dreamt of my prince <3 <3 <3 We were climbing rocks and the rocks are so slippery. I was so afraid of falling and then he just appeared beside me and give me his hands to help me to climb over. so nice. keke..PS: I didn't think of the person all the day! this dream is a random one. :P

Met JPA officer in the evening today. No dinner for us though. She is very friendly and talked to us for about more than one hour. Actually it does give me some inspirations to strive on being a good pharmacist! She's advising us must go back to msia to contribute to our country after graduation, which I think most of us have heard not less than three times. But hor, this time, as I contemplated further, UK has already had such an organised system for the profession of pharmacist and they are not lacking of excellent pharmacists here. But what really needs them is our beloved country who is still developing. We can have very good lives there, but, will we really be happy alone while seeing our country remain undeveloped, our dad, mom, relatives and friends living there sometimes suffering from the system and we never tried to do a thing about it? And, if we the lucky ones don't go back and apply the knowledge we have learnt for the reason of money or so, who else will continue the mission?

Just like the Bodhisattvas, with the merits they practise and gain they can get much better life in pure land in the West and never come back. Yet, they are still willing to come back to help us, and without them, where are we now? Without them, I'll never know happiness can only be found within my heart, not at the outer world. In simpler words, it's not happy to be happy alone, it's much more happier to be happy together. =)

Taking U10 bus back is also a bliss. And after coming back, we have Sin yee's mom cook -- mee sua.. hehe..nice nice. Always the best after a day's work. It's quite late now. I think a peaceful sleep is the best way to end my day today. Ah, a fulfilling day. Cheerios~~

When the new term starts

2010-10-07T13:12:00.000-07:00

This post is written due to the demand of gengwai mama. haha..

Erm, erm...Let's talk about my first week ( almost!) of school and my living environment here..hehe..

I dunno since when my friends around me are all so happy-go-lucky and sampat. hehe. So, here I am living in a new house in Old field Park with four warm hearted, sampat and cheerful friends. Everything is okay so far and I being the laziest of unpack all my stuffs. Sin yee ( one of my hsemate)'s mom is staying with us here for a couple of few weeks so you can imagine..we are really in a bliss recently..why? We can enjoy mom's cook as soon as we get U10 or U18 back home as soon as possible!!! This is really a good thing especially after a exhaustive day of lectures! hehehe~~ Thx to Sin yee's mom! Among those good food, she made us pan mee and curry chicken which we never expected to eat in UK....We will definitely miss you when you get back to msia! Awww~~^^

And so the new term has started. We will be having a more hectic life with lectures until 615pm on Mondays, Tuesdays and Thursday ( the busiest). Poor thing, Yean is going to have lectures non-stop for dunno 6 or 7 hours on Thursday without ANY gap! Today is Thursday and I tried to be positive towards my whole day, but failed during the brain cudgelling 3 hours lecture-thon. Hah~

The changes:

1. We made sandwich to school because we'll be having lunch mainly in uni. A combination of honey ham, tomates and lettuce fills our hunger at noon.

2. Taking bus. This can be time consuming~ hehe..Sometimes it is a real long queue and we have to stand on the bus till we get to uni. A good thing is, if i get a seat in the bus, I can simply close my eyes and enjoy the rest of the journey to the uni. Bus meditation..hehe..

3. I am being more "Pharmacist" now.. What we learn now is more clearly towards the Pharmaceutical field. I have been crazily using A4 papers for printing notes..running out of papers and it is just first week of the term.

4. The sceneries in Oldfield Park is soooo nice and calming. And looking out from the window of Dudu's room is especially Inspiring!!!! ( from dudu room can gaze stars at night!)

5. Good food, lots fun cooking together and online delivery!

6. Library as my second home in UK if Old field park the first. Means that I am getting more and more hardworking now. HAH..as if..(not so sure)ya..coz we normally spend out times in library if there is any gap.

7. We are seriously motivated by Jessica who always utilised her free time wisely by looking at lecture notes!

8. At last got myself a duvet and duvet cover. 100% cotton hor. so hard to find la. hehe.

9. All the rooms in the house are unlocked because they said it's against the law to have locks in a student house. But I kind of get used to it now. My room has soon become a 'playground' for everyone!

10. I have a home now. This is another brand new experience apart from staying in campus and it is not as bad as we thought initially!

Heheh..That's all for now. Till I have ilham then! :D

Happiness is here and now

2010-09-26T22:22:00.000-07:00

分享一个我非常喜欢的一首诗：

知足　

畏寒時欲夏，苦熱復思冬；
妄想能消滅，安身處處同。
草食勝空腹，茅當過露居，
人生解知足，煩惱一時空。

-- 蓮池大師

这对曾经历过四季的朋友们，应该会有更深刻的体会吧。

有时候，我们也会去不停地比较大马与外地的好，比较工作与读书的好，比较放假与上课的好。原来这也是一种粗的烦恼，纷纷扰扰何时了。

于是，停止去想，停止去追。终于，心开始安了。

不论到哪里，心里都能够安乐，是多么快乐的事。

现在，我在家里，我享受在家的感觉，不去想过去，不去想未来。

日后，即使思乡，也可以很快乐，很温暖。

当我们有一刻，是在担忧分离，担忧未来；我们并没有好好活在这一刻。我们把美丽的当下浪费了。

只要把心简单化，一切回归自然，心会很自然地欢喜起来。每一刻都是充满快乐美妙的一刻。

佛陀的喜悦，我们体会到了吗？

＊

舍不得拆开的礼物

2010-09-25T10:28:00.000-07:00

我的房间堆了很多还包着礼物纸的礼物盒。里头都是空的，是之前朋友送的礼物。

收礼物时，最开心，最欢喜的莫过于-- 收到礼物的那一刻！虽然个子是长大了，可是收到礼物时那种无法言语的开心的感觉可是从小孩子到现在都没有改变过的心情。

接到礼物，通常都是既惊喜，又兴奋！有点不敢相信，又因为朋友的诚意而又莫名的感动！

礼物啊，礼物，你就是这么美丽而神秘！看着礼物许久，我会舍不得拆开，会很好奇但又不想这么快知道答案~~

摸索摸索，等待等待，终于忍不住了，还是把它开了吧！于是，小心奕奕，手指与胶纸奋斗，看是你粘还是我厉害！如果礼物纸没烂掉，耶，我赢了！

然后。。看见真正的礼物了。因为没有期待，通常是朋友送的我都会很喜欢。最后，内心是一片持续很久的温暖。。

所以，我真的不舍得丢掉礼物的“外衣”！我堆了堆，说服自己这些盒子以后是有用的。每当我不小心打开那个厨，看见它们，我就会回忆起那惊喜又神秘的感觉。幸运的话，我还记得那个盒子的礼物是什么，是谁送的。我还真的记得噢。

终于，有一天盒子有用了。我被迫把那礼物纸撕开。这些礼物纸丢了真可惜，可是我又想不到有什么用处。

真的很喜欢，收礼物的感觉。不管里头是什么，我都想说一声谢谢，给曾经给我这份感觉的朋友们。^_^

醒之念

2010-09-04T08:14:00.000-07:00

佛陀教说人原有善念就别让它披上沙尘   好好修学要修持正念就要保留清纯的一面
该让自己活在清醒没尘埃的世界   该让自己活在一个有提醒的人生
当你处在那复杂的人世就该好好的显现心眼   坚持善念并立定意念就别因为一时的失念
该让自己被受保护而不是被欺骗    该让自己能够觉醒时时刻刻能自觉
让我们能自我觉醒自我去关心   不迷欲望不该好玩不再是贪心
让我们能自我觉醒自我去观心   不失正念不该堕落不再是迷失

Descendant of Shinobi~

2010-09-02T08:59:00.000-07:00

Becoming Truly Alive - one day meditation retreat

Is there anyone who is interested to go?? Please tell me, the one who seriously needs companion to go together for this event! hehe...

Have been continuously doing some work for quite some time. Till 1130pm, wish to continue so that I can finish faster...but hey, it is already 1130pm! I can't possibly finish'em all so hey...Let's call it a day! Yay~~~~ as usual, open facebook, open the blog and listen to this Descendant of Shinobi. Suddenly, this is a total different kind of feeling, as if I have never heard this song before. The feeling is.........as if I am Descendant of Shinobi. Marvellous. I guess that's the power of the time for myself.

I always forget, that myself is as important as the work and every other thing else. So even for the very small tiny bit of moment, let us be freed from emotions, thoughts, the urge to do things, people, anything. Just stay there and our mind free from anything. Slowly we taste and enjoy this moment of freedom.

Let's practise it every day~

值得

2010-08-26T03:33:00.000-07:00

这个假期，我可以肯定地说，
我过得前所未有的充实。
还记得在回家的飞机旅程中，
那长达十六个小时的时间，是漫长而无边的等待。
告诉自己说，一定要让我生命中被花费的这一天
牺牲得有它的价值。
现在，用那只剩四分之一的假期来证明，
这一次的归来，是值得的。

值得
不是因为我看了多少部戏，逛了多少次街；
而是在于，了了心愿
自己真正有用心去陪伴和孝养父母
有用心去陪年老的公公婆婆
有用心去维持朋友之间的关系
用心去度过每一天
虽然陪伴的时间不多
自己所尽的责任很少
但是，依然给予自己一丝丝的满足。
在有限的因缘和无常底下，没有后悔。

更值得的是
自己有多出来的时间
去用心深思自己的生命应该承担的责任。
一次次的法喜，巩固了内心的信愿。
善知识的指引，也让前路越来越清晰。
因为母亲的一句话，让我以为，明年不能归来了，
而深深地在我心里种下了这话：
“不能等。”
的确，怎么可以以为生命漫漫无边
而在迷乐，安适中迷失了自己，
蹉跎了岁月呢？
不能等，直下承担吧！
未了的心愿快去完成！

自己不懂的还有很多，
自己要学习和克服的还很漫长，
只求自己尽好当下的本分，活出生命的价值！
秉持大师的精神，
“难行能行，难忍能忍”
现在是，以后也是。
不管到哪里，人可以迷路，心不可迷路。
真的值得！因为，我的生命值得。

幸福

2010-08-07T10:17:00.000-07:00

我很久很久没有去公公婆婆家了
今天到来
公公硬硬硬硬要请我吃炒饭
炒饭不多他们一直推给我吃
然后我又推回给他们吃
吃饱后想买cendol
婆婆就是不收买cendol的钱
一大包cendol可以分三碗来喝
婆婆大呼：“很得（dai)啊~”

吃饱后就和婆婆大剌剌躺在床上看电影
我的肥肉就是在这种情况下产生了
过不久妈咪就回来了！
发觉妈咪真的很爱讲话
她可以“比哩巴啦”和婆婆一口气讲三万粒话！
太厉害了，怎么我都没有学到她呢？
去mamak档喝茶，又吃东西，gosh~
当妈咪和婆婆去买字
我突然有了半个小时和公公独处的时间
咱们站在人来人往的街上
默默等待两位买字的女人
我逗公公说话他笑笑下，也不多话
可是，那漫长的半个小时，我额外珍惜
因为它就是那独一无二的时刻，无可取代
虽然不做什么，却感恩我能在此刻守在他的身旁陪他等待^_^

下个星期好友要回学校上课了
而不知不觉我的暑假也一半过去了
看着她想着只能顶多再见几次有些不舍
活在幸福中犹如水中的鱼
人常常会不自觉把幸福当成了理所当然
离别并非是坏事
至少它教会了我要不断提醒自己
每一个当下只有这么一次都是最特别的一次
所以要珍惜所以要感恩所以要活得快乐
因为此事，我额外珍惜今天所发生的一切
但无论再怎么珍惜，我却不能从这一刻拿走些什么
至少
缘在时我呼吸我感受它的存在
缘灭时带不走一片云彩
明白了不执着我放下
一段因缘灭了另一段因缘生了
看得透便不悲哀
我学习我慢慢学习
如何在万变的世事中守住内心的幸福与宁静。

A post from Aplusk

2010-08-05T09:11:00.000-07:00

That's what I just read from Ashton Kutcher. It's a bit long but it is kind of meaningful. Never know he could write like this. It makes me admire him more. :) The title is called Roller Coaster to Happiness.

"Last week I shared a lesson from my teacher and had an amazing response from you all. So, I decided I would share my latest lesson. It’s about controlling you own state of happiness. My goal in life is to find infinite happiness and this lesson helps me get closer to that every day. It’s about jumping off of the roller coaster of emotional ups and downs and creating your own new ride. I hope you enjoy.

Often we think that emotions, feelings, experiences are much more powerful than a thought. A thought, an idea, is something that is very not tangible, is not something that necessarily we will feel its energy, its power. We feel much more personal with emotion – an emotion of love or hate, of good or bad – that seems to be a much more real experience, physical experience, meaningful experience, deeper experience. But thought? There are many thoughts! It is remote. It is in the air. It is imagination. It is not something tangible and physical.

However could thoughts be bigger than heart? Thoughts are bigger than feelings? Higher more Powerful? Do we give too much power to feelings and emotions?

If we desire to be the creators of our own happiness we must exit our reactive existence. Reactivity is anytime we allow our environment to control our state. The whole concept of reactivity is being ruled by emotions. How do we run the show?

We need to be ruled by consciousness – which will help us effect the right emotions. Not to say that we shouldn’t have emotions. But who is running the emotions? Us or our environment? The thought should run the emotions, and not the emotions run the thoughts. It is like, who is in charge? The master of the dog, or the dog? Who is taking whom for a walk?

In life, unfortunately, the reason people experience the ups and downs is because our emotions—which are our subjective way of seeing reality, and that is usually the typical emotion we are ruled by—are running our life. As a result, there is no way we will end up being positive, because if we are not injecting consciousness and intention and thoughts into whatever we are doing, it will never work out. But life will always will make sure to inject the emotion that will lead us astray other wise we can never earn true happiness. And if we don’t earn it we will never appreciate it. It’s like someone giving you a jig saw puzzle that’s already put together. There is no sense of accomplishment.

When we do not have a thought and consciousness and intention before any process, we let emotion to run the show. So we need to initiate, to pause – even though we may be doing something for somebody we love. We really want to do something for them. It is natural, we love it. We have emotion, we feel. But we have to stop and pause just one second, “What is my consciousness?” If it is really to help without agenda, to reveal Happiness in the world, to effect change in their life, to change our own selfish inclination, then we have to inject thought and consciousness into it. Of course we would love to have that natural positive emotion within us to carry on, but we have to make sure that thought will override it.

Emotion without the consciousness prior to it … is like an airplane without a pilot: sooner or later it will crash. Initially it will be great – a great ride. The airplane is pretty high. That is what happens with emotions. The only problem is, it does not feel like thoughts are stronger than emotions, and that is what strong consciousness is about.

Imagine you feel terrible today, and certain things happen that you do not like. But in your thoughts you are saying, “I know it is an opportunity, I know it is for the best,” but nevertheless, you do feel bad. It is a major conflict: Emotions versus your thoughts, your consciousness. What do you do about it? “I do not want to lie to myself; I really feel bad.” And that is the test. Are you going to allow your feelings to control your consciousness and believe it is a negative experience … or are you going to decide, “One second, I am not in denial – my feelings I do feel bad, but I have the certainty and the consciousness that it is for the good, and I will create good out of it, and I will transform that situation to the good.”

If we hold on to that thought in spite of the feeling that is pulling us down and pulling our thoughts down and awakening doubts of “Is it really going to be good?” … if we do not let it happen, then sooner or later the emotion will rise, as well. The good feeling will come, as well. And that is true accomplishment.

When we are able through thoughts – because we believe thoughts are a much stronger power, to transform feelings, then that is an indication of transformation. We will feel great because we think great. "

Swimming philosophy,again.haha.

2010-07-20T08:06:00.000-07:00

Here I go, on my fifth swimming lesson. I am currently learning free style; am still improving on breast stroke; Learned a bit about back stroke kicking and butterfly Dolphin style swimming but just stopped there. Teacher Lily is teaching my friend the Butterfly style. She did teach me a bit but for this stage, I think I have no potential at all to move in the water like a Dolphin. haha.

And it is not the first time I knew that my teacher is really philosophical. Still remember? The first lesson she taught me is about rhythm. She always relate swimming to practising piano to make us understand more about what she said. Today, she even spoke more philosophies than any lesson before. Her philosophy are so...philosophical. haha. Ignore what I said. Just want to jot down some of her philosophies here:

1. In swimming, it is very important that you learn to relax your muscles and not to tense up all your muscles at once. The more you tense up, the harder you'll find to swim in the water. Try to beat the water with your fist, you'll get nothing but pain. Now try to move your hand slowly under the water, you'll feel more strength from the water compared to beat it. As for the hands, if you let them relaxes, they'll slowly float in the water.

2. Why the fish can swim so fast and gracefully through the water, without using lots of energy at any time? The answer is simple, because the water is the fish and the fish is the water. To swim the fastest, you have to blend yourself into the water.

3. Most of the people forget to feel the water when they are swimming. They learn so hard to make themselves swim in the water. It is okay to learn a lot of theories but you can only master a technique by feeling it. It is very important you must feel the movement of the water. Only by feeling you'll get what I teach you.

4. A student asked why it is so hard to balance when swimming in the water. She said," It is impossible to find a balance point when swimming freestyle. That's why ou must keep moving with the water. "

5. I never teach the techniques all at once to you when you're learning freestyle. You have to practise by yourself, and when it comes to a point when I know you can learn to handle the trick a bit more, I'll teach you that step. That's why you improve every time you practise. And you'll slowly come to a point when you're there to learn the right thing.

6. The three styles are vitally linked to each other. Learning breaststroke helps the learning of freestyle while the freestyle helps the learning of butterfly. Thus, one can never learn one style and totally abandon or skip the other one. ( That's the most important thing I have learned from her.)

Aren't the philosophies are so great and inspiring us more to swimming? Teacher Lily has greatly integrated the swimming into her way of living life. And only today I knew that she is actually a Buddhist and she could do few hours of meditation every day! Wow. All that makes me admire her from my heart. A great teacher can influence more than we can imagine. And learning swimming gives me more than what I initially expected. It is, after all, NOT merely about swimming.

Eclipse

2010-07-20T07:29:00.000-07:00

Watched eclipse last week with my friend. As what she said, this is probably the very few blockbusters that we watch that late after it has been shown in the cinema. I am not a Twilight fan, since from the beginning. The first and second episode did not impress me much; Personally feels like it is just a love story under the setting of some boring vampire world ( Twilight fans please don't kill me, k??) And animes like Vampire knight and other vampire movies are apparently more exciting than this one..haha. And something unfair is, since it is just a love story and the story progresses so slowly, I hardly understood how the writer could write this as many pages as Harry Potter??

Haha, whatever the answer is. But for this third movie, it changed my mind! This is apparently the best out of these three. And it makes me giggles a lot at some scenes especially there are conflicts in the triangle love between Bella, Jacob and Edward. And thanks to the director, I started to indulge and understand more about the lovey dovey thing between they three which makes all the readers so insane about...The person who sit behind us was even more exaggerating; He even Laugh out Loud as if some scenes just seems so amusing to him. Haha..I guess it has turned out to be a comedy for audience like me! wahaha..but it is really a nice movie this time!

Some amusing points:
1. Edward's face is exaggeratively pale. I know that's the effect of the make up. But it makes him look more feminine instead of more ferocious as a vampire.
2. When Bella kisses Jacob, it seems that Edward feels like wanna kill himself. haha.
3. The werewolves were sooo cute!!! I can't help but recalling the two dogs in my house. haha. And then the interactions between the werewolves and vampires are a bit funny.
4. When Jacob hugs Bella to keep her warm, Edward said, " Can you stop your mind from thinking these things?"
5. When vampire wants to be human beings while human beings want to be vampires...

Personally prefer Jacob than the cold blooded Edward, although vampire sounds more mysterious. But Jacob is so man. haha. Sadly, Bella still insist to turn into a vampire in the end. Awww~~ Anyway, it makes me wanna watch the last episode straight away. Breaking Dawn..I am looking forward to it!!! Hopefully it is as good as this one!

Toy Story~~

2010-07-04T09:17:00.000-07:00

Lol, although today after some activities I am quite tired, but yet still feel the urge of posting!!! What to do? *ilham comes* hahaha~~

When looking back my handphone, I miss so much fun I had in Toy' R Us last week~~ The era now is really an advanced era. Look at how real those toys are!!! Exactly like what depicted in TS!

Jessie~ Yee haaa!!

Buzz light year!

The barbie..haha.

If you notice the price, then you'll know...everyone can have their own complete set of toy stories' toys! Provided they have lotsa $$.

Woody!!! My best friend's <3

Omg the super cute Squeeze toy aliens!!! haha..they are the great savior of all! Yooo so cute nya!

The lots-of-huggies Bear. And I am not joking, they really make it smell like strawberry. How lovely! haha..

Okay, we did fully utilise our consumer rights to touch and test play all those above stuffs. Awwww, there's so much fun!!! luckily the staff didnt chase us out. :P

So cute kan???? Remember to visit your nearest Toy'R Us for that! *I didn't earn any adver fee.* They are just too adorable to play with. If you want to give me a present, buy me a Squeeze toy alien k?? hahaha...XD

这个阿爸真爆炸

2010-07-02T09:17:00.000-07:00

套“这个阿爸真爆炸” 说的话：

“父母的心随着孩子的出世啊就滑了下来，无论孩子去到哪儿父母的心就跟到哪儿，直到他们死的那一天啊，那个心怎样也装不回进自己的心的咯。”

那个老爸说的时候脸上是挂着很幸福慈祥的笑容的。啊，无怨无悔的！我的眼眶又红了！我整天都伤父母心，惭愧惭愧呀！

That Day, I kissed my dad.

2010-06-21T00:45:00.000-07:00

Happy Father's Day!
It is Sunday in this year the Father's Day lies on. I have no present to give to him, but I thought it would be great if I can give him a surprise by a simple hug and kiss. I have attempted to do so since I woke up but since dad looked so stern all the time, it's kinda awkward to approach him suddenly and he might treated it as an "attack". hahaha. I was trying to find some chances. After coming back from breakfast, I knew that my dad was going out to work in the afternoon. Hmmm, that might be a great opportunity for me to surprise him before he went out!! So when he was tidying his stuffs and was about to go out, I pretend to speak to my mom and pretend to be around, sitting on the sofa, tidying my books, waiting for the right time to come. Heart is beating fast. At last, he picked up his shirt, wore it on and turned around to take his wallet. I quickly woke up from the sofa and caught him, hugged him from the side and two kisses on his cheeks, wishing him Happy Father's Day and may him drive safely.

He cracked jokes on me after that! I am happy and he is happy. So nice. Then when I stepped into the kitchen and my mom seemed to witness everything, I hugged and kissed her too, before she manage to say, " Why is that only for daddy!?" haha. That night, my dad looked less stern and he talked a bit more to me. Isn't that lovely? Although the action has passed but the energy of the action returned to I and my dad and it will be stored in our memories and affecting us since ever. That's the power of karma.

Many times, when we try to do sth that we are unfamiliar with, there is always mental struggles which i shall call it "pre-mental syndrome" whatsoever..haha..What i meant is, there're always whispers around my head which makes me struggle between doing it or not. e.g. The idea of suprising my dad, my egoness arises and will say," Don't do it. It is so paiseh lah. Forget about it lah." Or maybe I'll hear, "Haha, so funny! You'll be laughed for doing so. Pointless." But when I find the strength to turn of the button of those whisperers, and clear in mind that, this is a good act. And I just wanna show my dad how much I love him. And if i don't do this, I'll be thinking about it or regretting it for the whole day. Then just do it. haha. All of us got overwhelmed joy by overcoming my egoness and not to be fooled by it. So, just do it when you believe it is something right to do. Don't be fooled and controlled by negative thoughts. It's not the thing that is so hard it's the whisperers that is hard to be overcome.

Although he may not be a perfect dad, he is my hero. I will remember the promise of unconditional love. Complaining will not make a change but one positive thought will.

Happy father's day. When you have a chance to love someone, don't simply lose it.

Swimming lesson

2010-06-19T06:59:00.000-07:00

So, here comes my first swimming class this morning, thanks to Xian who introduced her teacher to me. =) Swimming is always a relaxing sports. When I'm in the water, it feels like nothing can really worth my thinking any more. I'll just have to breathe in and breathe out, and with each stroke feel the force by the water which push me forward.

The first important lesson I learned about breast stroke is about rhythm. Ngek ngek, so I guess I had breast stroke arrhythmia (XD) before I really learned about the rhythmic thing today. Just like what Teacher Lily said, everything has its own rhythm. Breast stroke has no exception as well. It carries a four beat in which you do the steps one by one: Bend, kick, straighten, and blow your breath. After blowing out then you breathe in again and then start the whole new cycle. She then further said, "Everything in the universe has its own rhythm. This is the natural rhythm of the universe and that's why you see the sun rising up in the morning but not at night." I kept on nodding my head because this is so true~~ Sometimes many wrong things could happen if we lose our rhythm of life; We want to play games when we study. We watch tv when we eat. We wake up at night when it is time to sleep and we sleep when we suppose to wake up. Haha. What a life disorder we have!

Not only physical disorder we have, we also somehow suffer from mental ones. We think of this when we're doing that and we think of that when we're doing this. Our "soul" were always not in the place where we're suppose to be at the present moment. Sometimes when we encounter a serious problem, we can even carry the problem in our head for 24 hours with us. To think about it over and over again when we're eating, resting, sleeping although we can't figure out a solution. Hence there is a Chinese proverb goes,

哭有时, 笑有时

分别有时,相聚有时

寻找有时,失落有时

悲伤有时,欢乐有时

Most of the times we tend to be over-worried or over-reacted to a problem which is not necessary. Sometimes it does not matter how heavy the glass of water is, what it matters is how long you have hold it with your hands that makes you feel tired.

When you know the technique and rhythm of swimming, then you can swim easier and faster. Just as when you know the correct way to live a life, life wouldn't be too harsh to you, because you know how to work with life. :)

Carolicious~~

2010-06-16T08:08:00.000-07:00

Reading my friend's post about food gives me the urge to post something about food too. And more particularly, it is those kinds of food which you can only or mainly have it in Msia which I want to write about. Back to Malaysia for a few days, my parents have started to help me to hunt for food in Cheras!!! It is a luxury for Malaysians for enjoying the food all day with affordable price, whereas in UK we'll normally have to cook our own dishes to save some money! Heheh, so what I have eaten in these few days after A year not eating them????

1. MOM'S COOK!!!!

Mum's cook is always the best. No artificial colourings, no preservatives, no artificial flavourings, and FULL OF LOVE. I miss her cook soooo much! And one of the target during this summer is to learn her secret recipes in cooking so that I can cook equally good food in UK next time!

2. Pan meeeeee~ ~

The special noodles in soup, with the typical fried anchovies, mu4 er3, China mushroom slices( my favourite), and bayam on top. Pan mee can never taste better in Malaysia! And pan mee plus eggs ( with semi runny yolk) tastes even better~~
I have just tried the pan mee in the nearest restaurant, and i shall go to taman connaught mei yi and giant to taste the super delicious pan mee again! XD

3. Hakka meee!!!
KL hakka mee is one of my most favourites!!! FYI, I have been regularly eating the hakka mee in a stall in KL ever since I have memories about my childhood! Of course, it is also my dad's favourite, that's why he's bringing me to there frequent than any others. Despite the lack of cleaniness of the surroundings, the stall is always busy with people and the taste of it is so unique that it is absolutely incomparable to the other stalls selling hakka mee. It may not be the most delicious one but it has the most 怀旧的味道。Sorry, no picture shown. I should have really taken a pics after million times of visiting~

4.Nasi lemak
If you don't know you're definitely not a Malaysian. Saving my saliva, it's simply a nice meal that I won't miss out.

5.. What else?? It's Wednesday = Taman Connaught Pasar Malam!
Wow, this is the longest night market you will see in Malaysia simply because it is a combination of supermarket + garment store+ food court which makes up the rows of stalls of three roads length. My dad and mum brought me to there tonight and because they so sayang me and since it has been a year i last visited pasar malam, I have got 6 t-shirts, a pair of slippers, a pair of Crocs ( because I seriously don't have any nice shoes at home T.T), two bath towels, and some Food: Taufuhua, taiping Char kue teow, Soya milk, Apam, and egg tarts! When the time is approaching nine, the place get overcrowded that my dad started to get crazy and wanted to get out of it. Thx dad and mum! ^^

6. The future targets.....ngek ngek ngek~
- Kajang: Satay, 辣汤
- Bah kut teh!
- Ba zhang ( tomorrow)
- Wantan mee
- STEAMBOAT
- Secret recipes ( I shall try every single piece of cakes in SR)
- Mei yi pan mee and yee mee
- Malay food and kuih
- Ice creamssss
- Cincau and Cendol
- Ais kacang
- Kambing soup
- My grandma's cook

And I think I need more veges. Ironically, I'm lacking more fibre compared to the time I am in UK. I started to experience constipation now. but it is kind of hard to get sufficient vege when you're eating outside food. hmmm~~

The list is increasing. The rate of growing fat is increasing too. Okay, erm, my philosophy is: Go on diet, after I have eaten them all. haha! Enjoy the summer!!!

H.O.M.E.~~

2010-06-13T09:28:00.000-07:00

It is the first time I was officially being "picked up" in the airport.

I gave hugsss to my dearest family whom I have not hugged for a year.

I gain the smiles from them whom I have never faced for a year.

I picked up the hands I have not hold for a year.

Although sometimes I am sitting silently listening to the adults gossiping about their problems, I enjoy to be with them.
After the dinner, I took the ang pau from my dearest grandpa who as promised has kept it for me for about half a year. For the first time he broke the his silence and spoke so many words to me! If I were not wrong, when he ended his words, his eyes welled up with tears. I was so surprised and touched that time, and I caress him and said we'll yum cha tomorrow!

I know I am back to my home now. =)

一个有趣的故事

2010-06-09T18:01:00.000-07:00

稍微阴暗的下午。

在Greenwich的公园入口。五个人。

寻找着Meridian Greenwich 的踪迹。

有人骑着脚踏车。儿童在嬉戏。狗儿在玩乐。

而我们都不知道到底那条重要的格林威治线到底在哪儿~~

跑去看布告栏。啊呀呀！原来它在公园的中间。

那是很广阔的公园。眼前有三条路！每一条都看不见最后的终点在哪儿。

要走哪条才会到达呀？

A（wen）: 走这条啦，这里比较多人叻。。

B（dudu）：啊？为什么不是这条？这条路吧。。啊呀呀那个狗很cute~~

C（kenny）：喂！不是叻，地图上指的是大路来的，所以应该是有车过的这一个~~

A：可是这一条好像没有什么人酱。。
B：而且要上山坡er！

五粒人最后听取了C的意见，上山坡去了。

听了这短短的对白，突然觉得真的好有趣！

当我们走到了人生的十字路口，影响你的决定最深的因素，会是朋友，社会，你喜爱的东西，还是你眼前所见的数据呢？ =)

=题外话=
A(续）：aiya，为什么carol和epping没有出声的？
D （Epping): 啊？（blur blur~）就跟你们啊！
E（Carol)：因为我觉得条条大路都通罗马。。
A：CArol一定是根据数字的，ngek ngek ngek ~（奸笑）

你看，我又中chiam了，194啊，你的名字真的害我不浅呢。

*
=有感而发篇=

我们的心里面

总是憧憬与追求另一半的幸福

我的社会总告诉我

什么是大男人小女人

为什么我们不能化为童真的小孩

享受没有爱情的自由与幸福？

为什么社会告诉你 Iphone Ipad 是最好的东西

人们就想要拥有它

人们最想要的到底是最好的东西

还是被社会大众认同的价值呢？

为什么最先进的科技

永远填不满人们的欲望呢？

为什么社会喜欢美女
我就一定要觉得体重有压力，眼睛小不美丽
为什么我要让社会去决定我的决定，
去决定我的价值观呢？

晚安咯。=）

CUteeeeee

2010-05-31T13:22:00.000-07:00

Awwwww..!! Facebook is definitely the best place to stalk people! The more fortunate is, today I bumped into a guy who is as CUte and Adorable as the main actor in Zettai Kareshi!!

The guy is 99% as similar as Hayami Mokomichi (as above) but from his photos I think he really looks better than that!! He's the same age as me and he's such a lovely cute face that I can't move my eyes from him for a while! It feels like I know him before, seriously!!!! hahaha... XD

And then and then from my friend I knew that he's an excellent student studying in KL. Surprisingly, the world is so small, because my friend knew him and from his profile there are some of my friends that he knew too!!! I must has met him before. Must have.hmmmm.

Cute, obedient, adorable and clever. xxxxx

He looks best when he smiles. And then I can see his dimples.

Looking at him is like appreciating art, apart from Jerry Yan!!!

But but but but, the bad thing about him is, he is sooooooo thin!!! He's really a typical Malaysian boy. Two dimension. Aw, are they all suffering from Hyper or hypothyroidism?? They seriously need Appeton Weight Gain!!! What if I fainted, how is he suppose to carry me to the nearest hospital?? I guess he has to dragg me along then!!!

And the second bad thing is: He has a girl friend. The end. :(

Jay

2010-05-26T17:16:00.000-07:00

Suddenly fell in love in Jay's music. I don't mean that I don't like him before, just that tonight I started to appreciate how he appear to be a talented guy in the people's eyes. He's a man demanding of perfection, and although I can't help thinking that his recent album is not as good as the old ones, I found out more and more of his specialness in the music style in his older songs, which he shows that he's really different from the artists from around the same era.

His love songs are especially nice and soothing to hear; No loudly banging music or over-depressive music, but a simple flow with the 4 or 2 beats played by drum instrument ( which makes the songs so nice and relaxing to hear!!! ) ~~ just like what i'm listening now: lan man shou ji, jian dan ai, and many moreee.

On top of that, he is the only one I know that can integrate Chinese instrumental playing into the music so perfectly that those songs emerge as famous pop songs with a sense of chinese traditional style. Just like dong feng po, qing hua ci, fa ru xue. A combination of the elegance of traditional instrument sound with the continuously flowing music and his voice which just simply integrate into one harmonious piece.

Am I a bit too late to realize his charm? haha..anyway, sit back and enjoy~~

P.S.: Btw, I really admired by Dudu's gengness!!! She can hum any song be it happy or sad song every day without being affected by the song itself!!! I can't do it, when I listen to sad song I just felt the pain of the singer or the MV. That's why I don;t tend to listen to bei cham song as it just makes me feel down! lol =P

Nah..after exam^^

2010-05-19T16:15:00.000-07:00

Now I understand, beauties somehow also have their own problems. Problems dealing with all the butterflies and bumble bees flying around. You know, it is summer and bugs get active. hahaha. But everyone needs her own privacy, or else beauty will become the beast to beat the annoying bug with a..anything, racket or cricket. And then that's what we called in Chinese die under the stone dress of the girl. hahahahha~~

lalala~~ Today I have finally sat for the exam of the second subject -Human Physiology!!! Thanks especially to kenny and jackie, we have got enough exercise to do before we move to the exam hall. And it turns out to be okay for most of us. haha. And now, two down, and three more to go..which I least prepared! This is going to be a tough fight!!!

And ya, happy happy Birthday to my dear Gengwai!!! I'm sure the Mancunians have given her the best first birthday in the UK!! It always surprised me to see how well made the birthday card, and I have to admit that Mancunians are really creative ( as usual)!

Today I also discover how amazing my brain is - I was afraid that I was not able to finish revising the core lectures and so I set my alarm to 7 am in the morning. I slept and slept so soundly, and the next moment i open my eyes...Oh my!!!! The sky is a bit lighter and my alarm clock must be not working!!! I grab the alarm clock close to my face and read - OH my it is 630am and I have woke up!!! Good brain..but I decided to sleep till 830 am then. hahahaha.. after the exam, I slept for three hours till the evening to reward my brain!

Tonight's dinner: a Purplish porridge!!! Why purplish?? Ask the red cabbage from Yean. I was now desperately running out of vege and now have to survive on a small little broccoli donated by yean T.T Because we have to wait until Friday when the morning market opens then we can go down shopping for food and groceries~~ haha. hmmm, dun worry, I still have a pekking duck rice from iceland. I will survive through the hardest time. XD Oh yeah, and we watch IP man 2 when we're eating!!! Personally think that IP man 2 is a bit fake ley...the real kung fu that IP man shows to beat the mat salleh, he could have shown it in the first round!!! But due to the demand of the audience, I guess the producer has to build up the emotions of the audience and save the best for the last! How easily our emotion can be altered by a song, a film or even some words said by the others. But more often or not, we tend to listen to our emotion and act according to it. That's why you will cry towards the end of the love movie because you must, as the director has put so much effort in building up your emotion to the peak!! haha..look like I have become a bit more analytical after watching Ajahn Brahm's talk.

The exclammation marks and "haha" that I put in my post, do they just cheer you up a bit after reading it?? haha..yes! I have successfully influenced your emotion!!! Anyway, it is not a waste of time reading it right?? I hope so!!!

lala, tomorrow I shall start my hard work seriously. The clock is ticking!! And I don't wanna die too early. haha. Night night!

暖暖

2010-05-18T07:51:00.000-07:00

我有一个罗嗦的妈妈，她每次看到我就会开始她的马拉松赛跑：吃饱了没啊？吃什么来？几点吃？几时考试？考几科？昨天几点睡？等等等等的。有时我这个不孝女就会很不耐烦地回她：吃饱拉....就吃那个咯....刚才啦....5月18咯....5科.......

今天刚考完第一科试，便misscall 妈妈想和她聊天嘛，结果不久便收到了这封信息：

想起妈妈原本是不会打sms的，可是知道我要出国了，便心急着要我教她打字。我也只是短短地教了她一些步骤。今天看到她的信息，这么长！！！应该是打过的最长的了！

啊~~ 我的心竟是满满的温暖~~~

为了孩子，可以学自己从来不会的东西，可以做从没做过的事，可以事事都以他的立场和快乐着想，不尝试控制或改变他，这无私的爱的能力，是孩子给父母的礼物。也是我们孩子应该从父母身上学习的精神。

我相信天下的父母，都曾为孩子默默做过最令人感动的故事，也许有时候他们爱的方式和别人不一样，可是他们的心意绝对是最真的。我有一个罗嗦的妈妈，可是我好爱她喔!^^

Ship that never sink

2010-05-13T12:42:00.000-07:00

Just remembered how amazing that one friend can link to another, coincidentally. Just like Gengwai and my another friend Ying Wei ( they added each other in fb although they don't know who the other is); Like Yean and my old friend Xian; Like I and Alvin whom I have never ever met before; Like Ikhur whom I just get to know after I have heard Yean mentioned of her not lower than a hundred times. And much much more..

And it is much much more amazing to see how blissful we are to have some truthful friends around. Mention the recent ones. Just like the time when we are almost frozed to death in an abandoned Scotland train station, the time we wait for the easy bus to come in an outdoor..we hug each other and make a very very close circle to warm each other up. We jumped and we talked craps to cheer each other up. We took care of each other to make sure that everyone can feel safe no matter how miserable the situation can be. And the other occassion, the moment we almost burst into tears when we're in the wrong airport. And because of Ikhur and meiren, we managed to get the train back home. And my old friend who always support me and never absent in giving me love and care every day although we're thousand miles away. Without you guys, what am I suppose to be doing when I'm facing all these alone? this is so unimaginable .I am such a forgetful person, as you know..so i can just think of a few recent ones which I should never forget.

Just now Yean suddenly called me and she was crying. I was @.@ and asked what happened! And she said..Gengwai has posted up a video about us~~ hmmm..finally!!! hehe..i heard about that weeks ago and finally she has successfully done it! It was a touching one..watching the video was like opening the hidden box filled with sweet memories~ Bravo gengwai!

Yean asked, whether we're going to have 4 years in the future having so many sweet memories like this. I said, yes! Just wanted to tell her, although I may be teasing her all the time, I heart her a lot. Every phase in life is a newpage to begin, and I hope with my presence along with the others, she will be filled with joy every day.

And to all the friends that we have known each other so well, I heart you all a lot. If i were given a chance, I hope I can give you all joy and happiness instead of seeking for joy and happiness from you guys. When you are sad and have something to share, I hope someone will be there for you, if he is not me.

The proverb says, every ship will sink except Friendship! Yeah I agreed! How bored I would be if I have nobody to crap with, no fb to comment, no rumours to gossip about and no blog to read. awwwwwww~~

This evening Jes stormed into my room and we suddenly thought of Taufu hua packets that Yunyi gave us last time! Although it is not that successful...it tastes really nice!

how can I try on such a hao liao if not yun yi gave me? Awww~~ friends you are all so sweet!

You are all my心肝宝贝！^_^